Beautiful Mess (Book I)

Chapter twenty-nine

"Our bond is stronger than the distance between us."

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•Rae•

Three months. I've known Kyle for three months. I realize that as I open the first page of his journal. It seemed like years to me, because I felt like I knew the real him and he knew the real me more than anyone ever did.

Since the moment Shelley left my room, I've been sitting on the floor trying to accept the situation. Kyle's really gone. I won't see him ever again.

Placing my hand on top of the page, I start to read.

[𝓘 𝓱𝓪𝓽𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓹𝓵𝓪𝓬𝓮. 𝓘 𝔀𝓲𝓼𝓱 𝓘 𝓭𝓲𝓮𝓭 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓭𝓪𝔂 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝔂 𝓵𝓸𝓬𝓴𝓮𝓭 𝓶𝓮 𝓾𝓹 𝓲𝓷 𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮. 𝓐𝓼 𝓫𝓪𝓭 𝓪𝓼 𝓶𝔂 𝓸𝓵𝓭 𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓰𝓸𝓽, 𝓪𝓽 𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓼𝓽 𝓘 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓭𝓸 𝔀𝓱𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓘 𝓹𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓼𝓮𝓭 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓰𝓸 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓘 𝔀𝓪𝓷𝓽𝓮𝓭. 𝓝𝓸𝔀 𝓘'𝓶 𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓪 𝓹𝓻𝓲𝓼𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓻 𝓱𝓮𝓵𝓭 𝓪𝓰𝓪𝓲𝓷𝓼𝓽 𝓶𝔂 𝔀𝓲𝓵𝓵. 𝓘 𝓭𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝓲𝓯 𝓘'𝓵𝓵 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓫𝓮 𝓪𝓫𝓵𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓰𝓮𝓽 𝓸𝓾𝓽. 𝓘 𝓭𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝔀𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝔂'𝓻𝓮 𝔀𝓪𝓲𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓯𝓸𝓻. 𝓘 𝓭𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓴 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝔂 𝓾𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓵𝓸𝓬𝓴𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓶𝓮 𝓾𝓹 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓰𝓲𝓿𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓶𝓮 𝓹𝓲𝓵𝓵𝓼 𝓮𝓪𝓬𝓱 𝓭𝓪𝔂 𝔀𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓬𝓱𝓪𝓷𝓰𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝔂𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰.

𝓘 𝓱𝓪𝓽𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓰𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓹 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓪𝓹𝔂. 𝓘 𝓱𝓪𝓽𝓮 𝓼𝓲𝓽𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝓵𝓲𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓸 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓸𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓼 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓘 𝓱𝓪𝓽𝓮 𝓲𝓽 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓷 𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓮 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓘 𝓱𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓽𝓪𝓵𝓴. 𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓸𝓷𝓵𝔂 𝓰𝓸𝓸𝓭 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓱𝓪𝓹𝓹𝓮𝓷𝓮𝓭 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓘 𝓰𝓸𝓽 𝓽𝓸 𝓭𝓻𝓪𝔀 𝓪𝓯𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓰. 𝓘 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓹𝓪𝓲𝓻𝓮𝓭 𝓾𝓹 𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓱 𝓡𝓪𝓮𝔂𝓵𝓷. 𝓘 𝓭𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝔀𝓱𝔂 𝓫𝓾𝓽 𝓼𝓱𝓮 𝓼𝓮𝓮𝓶𝓮𝓭 𝓽𝓻𝓲𝓰𝓰𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓭 𝓫𝔂 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓬𝓸𝓵𝓸𝓻 𝓻𝓮𝓭. 𝓢𝓱𝓮 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝓮𝓭 𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓼𝓸 𝓘 𝓬𝓱𝓪𝓷𝓰𝓮𝓭 𝓲𝓽 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓭𝓻𝓮𝔀 𝓙𝓮𝓼𝓼 𝓲𝓷𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓪𝓭. 𝓐𝓷𝓭 𝓘 𝓽𝓪𝓵𝓴𝓮𝓭 𝓽𝓸 𝓱𝓮𝓻 𝓪𝓰𝓪𝓲𝓷 𝔂𝓮𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓭𝓪𝔂. 𝓘 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓵𝓵𝔂 𝓭𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝔀𝓱𝔂 𝓘 𝓭𝓲𝓭 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽. 𝓣𝓱𝓸𝓼𝓮 𝓰𝓲𝓻𝓵𝓼 𝓯𝓻𝓸𝓶 𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓰𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓹 𝔀𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝓼𝓲𝓽𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓷𝓮𝔁𝓽 𝓽𝓸 𝓶𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝔂'𝓻𝓮 𝓱𝓮𝓻 𝓯𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓷𝓭𝓼 𝓘 𝓰𝓾𝓮𝓼𝓼 𝓼𝓸 𝓼𝓱𝓮 𝓱𝓪𝓭 𝓷𝓸 𝓬𝓱𝓸𝓲𝓬𝓮 𝓫𝓾𝓽 𝓽𝓸 𝓼𝓲𝓽 𝓫𝓮𝓽𝔀𝓮𝓮𝓷 𝓶𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓸𝓷𝓮 𝓸𝓯 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓶. 𝓘 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓵𝓵𝔂 𝓭𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝔀𝓱𝔂 𝓘 𝓽𝓪𝓵𝓴𝓮𝓭 𝓽𝓸 𝓱𝓮𝓻 𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱. 𝓘 𝓭𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝔀𝓪𝓷𝓷𝓪 𝓶𝓪𝓴𝓮 𝓯𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓷𝓭𝓼 𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮.]

I turn the page. He didn't write the date but I can tell from the content that a few weeks had passed since the first entry.

[𝓘'𝓿𝓮 𝓫𝓮𝓮𝓷 𝓽𝓪𝓵𝓴𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓸 𝓡𝓪𝓮𝔂𝓵𝓷 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝔀𝓪𝔂 𝓘 𝓫𝓮𝓱𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓪𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓷𝓭 𝓱𝓮𝓻 𝓲𝓼 𝓭𝓲𝓯𝓯𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓷𝓽. 𝓘 𝓪𝓼𝓴 𝓱𝓮𝓻 𝓺𝓾𝓮𝓼𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷𝓼, 𝓘 𝓽𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓱𝓮𝓻 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼 𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓱𝓮𝓻 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓷 𝓪𝓼𝓴𝓲𝓷𝓰. 𝓘 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓴 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽'𝓼 𝔀𝓮𝓲𝓻𝓭. 𝓦𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓱𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓲𝓼 𝓰𝓸𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓸𝓷? 𝓐𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝔂 𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓘 𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱𝓽 𝓘 𝔀𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭 𝓷𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓫𝓮 𝓪𝓫𝓵𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝔂𝓸𝓷𝓮. 𝓑𝓾𝓽 𝓘 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓴 𝓘 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮 𝓱𝓮𝓻. 𝓞𝓻 𝓶𝓪𝔂𝓫𝓮 𝓘'𝓶 𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓬𝓾𝓻𝓲𝓸𝓾𝓼 𝓽𝓸 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓮 𝓪𝓫𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓱𝓮𝓻... 𝓘 𝓭𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀. 𝓘 𝓭𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓯𝓮𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓰.]