REBORN [ BTS FF ] BOOK 1

Chapter 48

Jimin's POV 

Changes . 

Everything Changes , That's The Rule Of Nature . Nothing Is Permanent .........Even Feelings . People Change , And They Often Become The Person They Said They Would Never Be . 

Life Is Complicated But Love Is More Complicated . It's Like A Sweet Trap , It Always Plates A Bait That You Need The Most And When You Reach Out To Have It .......It Moves Away , When I Needed Company , Love And Care ......It Took Away Minseo , Again It Offered Someone By My Side ......When I Tried To Hold Her .....She Slipped Away , Pulled Away From Me By Guilt And Regret . 

I Was Guilty ......I Cheated The Person I Loved The Most . 

                                 I Was Regretting ......To Lose Self Control And Fall For Her . 

Miserable . Pathetic . Helpless . 

I Sat On My Bed , My Body Was Burning But I Ignored It Thinking That God Was Punishing Me , And Yes , I Deserve It . I Deserve To Suffer , My Whole Life I Was Just Suffering , Suffer To Achieve Grades ,Suffer To Be One Of The Park ,  Suffer To Woo The Person I Love , Suffer With Unnecessary Feelings , Suffer To Maintain Status , Suffer To Make Fans Happy , Suffer To Maintain Family's Name ......Suffer . 

I Looked Out Of The Window , The Sun Was Shining Bright In The Sky Probably Mocking At Me , Mocking My Dark , Void , Pathetic Life . Mocking Me For Being Useless . 

I Heaved Out A Deep Sigh And Stared At The Ring That Minseo Slid In My Ring Finger On Our Engagement . We Were So Happy ......Although Arranged But The Smile On Her Lips Was Genuine .......It Was Beautiful . 

" I Miss You ......Kim Minseo-ah ." I Sighed And Continued Staring At Our Rings .....Yes Our . I Also Put On Her Ring As Chan Hee Was Trying To Put On That , I Can't Allow Anyone To Touch What Belongs To Me . Chan Hee Always Tries To Be My Minseo But She can Never Be , No One Can Be My Minseo .......But Why Na Hee Gives Me Feeling That She Isn't Na Hee But My Minseo . The Way She Talks , The Way She Waves Her Hand , The Way She Thinks Tapping Her Chin , Everything That Minseo Used To Do .....How Can They Act So Similar? 

" Jimin-ssi ? Are You There ?" I Looked At The Door As Someone Knocked On It . I Sighed Hearing The Familiar Voice . I Really Have No Interest To Talk With Her After What Happened Last Night . After What I Did......I Just Wanna Ignore Her .

Minseo's POV 

" Jimin-ssi ? Are You There ?" I Sighed Knowing That He Gonna Ignore Me , After That Kiss , He Ran Away Like A Coward Without Answering My Questions , I Shook My Head And Turned To Leave But Hearing A Click Of The Door Made Me Stop And Turn To See Silver Disheveled Haired Guy Behind The Door Looking At His Feet . 

" Why Are You Here Na Hee-ssi ?" He Asked As If He Was Avoiding My Gaze . I Opened My Mouth To Speak But Nothing Came Out Just Air . I Pursed My Lips Thinking Why I Came Here , I Shut My Eyes Tightly . " If There's Nothing ......I- " I Stopped Him From Shutting The Door , He Looked At Me Shocked . I Fluttered My Eyes Trying To Act Normal Although My Heart Was Beating As If I Just Ran A Marathon . 

" Can We.....T-Talk ?" 

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" What Do You Wanna Talk About ?" He Asked As He Sat On The Far End Of The Couch , While I Was On The Other End . I Fiddled My Fingers Trying To Find Some Words , My Palms Were Already Sweaty .....I Looked At Him Who Was Checking His Instagram Posts , But My Eyes Landed On His Rings , On My Ring . Our Engagement Ring ? He Still Kept It With Him ?

 He Sensed My Gaze And Hid It By Balling His Fist . 

" Jimin Oppa ? " I Whispered Softly As Tears Threatened To Fall , The Memories Of Our Engagement Day Flashed In My Eyes , I Started Sniffing Although I Wanted To Smile But Tears Just Fall On My Cheeks Making Me Cry Again . Since When I Started To Be A Cry Baby ? 

Before Being Na Hee , I Was A Reckless Girl , I Lived For Myself , I Lived Because I Couldn't Die , Even In My Hardest Time , I Never Cried , Coz I Had Nothing To Lose ......But After Getting A Family And Friends , I Was Scared ........Scared To Lose Them . That's Why I Started Crying . I Knew Crying Won't Change Anything But It Always Helped Me To Ease And Relief Me From The Pain . To Have A New Start . 

" Jimin Oppa ? " He Looked At Me With His Red And Puffy Eyes . " Let's Start Again ......Let's Forget Everything And Give Ourselves A New Start .....Huh ?" He Didn't Replied ....Nor I Dared To Speak As I Cried Silently . The Distance Between Us Was Just A Meter Or Two But It Felt Like We Were On The Two Opposite Poles Of The Earth . 

North   And South . 

But Everyone Knows, Opposite Attracts . 

Then Why He's Pushing Me Away ? Why He's So Guilty? Is This His Guilt And Regret That's Pulling Us Away ? 

Guilt That He Fall For Me Again ? 

 Or The Regret ,Telling Him That  He'll Be Hurt Again ?

I Just Want To See Him Happy ...........I Want To See Him Smile , Like The Day He Slid The Ring In My Finger , Like The Day When I Pecked His Cheeks , Like The Day When He Promised Me That He'll Marry Me After Coming Back From His Shooting . 

Changes . 

People Change So Fast . Why I Can't See My Jimin That I Adored , With Whom I Dreamt And Build Castles .....Our Forever House . Why It Seems Like ......Everything Is.....Just Blurry ? 

*******************End Of Chapter  48 . 

Hehehe . 

I'm Really Sorry For All Those Sad Nonsense But I Guess A New Start Can Make Our Characters  Happy. What Do You Guys Think ? Will Jimin Accept Her Proposal ? Will He Smile Again Like He Used To Smile ? Let's See ....... 

Hope For The Best !! Hwaiting !! 

- Charil Meng .