𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑓 {𝐻𝑎𝑖𝑘𝑦𝑢𝑢 𝑜𝑛𝑒𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑡𝑠}

🌧 𝙰𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚝𝚎// 𝙺. 𝚃𝚜𝚞𝚔𝚒𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚖𝚊

Kei Tsukishima was never an affectionate person and you knew that. You didn't know what you expected when you confessed to him but it sure wasn't this.

He didn't want you to hug him, or cuddle, hell you two barely even kiss at all. It's like he didn't want to show affection at all.

"I'm just saying, how hard is it to at least show me that you care?!"

He scoffed. "I'm sorry that I can't love you how you want me to!"

"You're not affectionate with me at all and it feels like you don't even want me around!" It was your turn to scoff next, the audacity he had pissing you off.

"Maybe I don't want you around!" He yelled back.

"What?" You stood there in disbelief, anger taking over your senses.

"Wait I didn't-"

"I'm leaving." You said walking past him to your room and packing the most important things away.

"Please don't leave! I-I don't know why I said that but I swear it's not true!" He said panic filling his body.

"You're right Kei. I'm sorry for pressuring into trying to love me how I want you to. But I can't keep feeling like shit in this relationship. I don't think you loved me. You just loved the idea of me being with you. And that's okay. But I have to go." You sighed before putting your bag on your shoulder.

Frustrated tears ran down his face as he tried to reach for you. "Please don't go. I'm not in love with just the idea of you, I'm in love with you. I-I'll try to be more affectionate I promise but please don't leave me."

"I love you Kei but it wouldn't be genuine. It'd almost be like I guilt tripped you into it. And I can't do that." You smiled sadly before turning and opening the door. "I'll be back to get my stuff sometime this week." And with that you closed the door walking out on him.

That was a year ago. Tsukishima watched as you ran up to Bokuto excitedly holding boba in your hands. He took a sip before his eyes went wide and  you nodded at him furiously. He pulled you closer to him as the two of you shared your tea, his arms never leaving your waist.

Tsukishima wondered if he had done those small actions, if you'd still be with him. If it would've made you feel wanted. He saw how bright you looked in Bokuto's arms, and he saw how you smiled. God your smile was so gorgeous. But you barely ever got to smile when you were with Tsukishima.

He felt a particular pang in his chest when he watched Bokuto put his hand on your cheek to pull you in for multiple little kisses. Your curls blew slightly in the wind, as you laughed at whatever Bokuto was saying.

When Tsukishima saw how happy you looked his heart broke. Before even talking to you like he'd planned he knew it was over.

Because he knew he could never make you that happy.