𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑓 {𝐻𝑎𝑖𝑘𝑦𝑢𝑢 𝑜𝑛𝑒𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑡𝑠}

🌧 𝙱𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚍 // 𝙺. 𝚃𝚜𝚞𝚔𝚒𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚖𝚊

TW MANIPULATION, VERBAL ABUSE, OVERALL TOXICITY

The games you played were never fun
You'd say you'd stay but then you'd run

Kei Tsukishima. Your boyfriend of nearly two years. The toxic cycle the you allowed to happen, repeated for two years.

You knew that it would be rough to date him, but you didn't expect him to be as toxic as he was. He always threatened to leave or hurt himself, so you stayed.

Giving you what you're begging for
Giving you what you say I need
I don't want any settled scores
I just want you to set me free
Giving you what you're begging for
Giving you what you say I need, say I need

He always said you owed him something. Whether it was your body, your time, or your money, you always owed him. Because you should be grateful that he even loved you in the first place.

He always said no one would anyways. You knew he was wrong. You deserved love. REAL love. And you found that in someone else.

I'm not afraid anymore
What makes you sure you're all I need?
Forget about it
When you walk out the door and leave me torn
You're teaching me to live without it
Bored, I'm so bored

You were bored. And tired. You knew you deserved better. So one day you packed your things when he was gone, and left. You drove to his house.

Akaashi Keiji. The person that kept you warm in your coldest moments. The flame that kept your candle from going out. When he opened the door you collapsed into his arms sobbing when he wrapped his arms around you, finding comfort in his care.

"Keiji..." you sniffed and he just hummed. A small reassurance that he was there. Something Tsukishima never was. He always claimed to love you, but never loved you enough to stay.

You didn't want fake love, or to be beat down every day. You wanted to really be loved. To be cared for. The way Akaashi cared for you. The way he held you and let you cry into him and the way he was ready to pick you back up again.

He didn't think you were broken like Tsukishima.

To him you were a complex piece of art that he'd keep forever because it was his favorite.

You were his favorite.

***

Months later You still saw Tsukishima but instead of the cold, malicious flares, the looks sent your way, were ones of despair, and sadness.

However, you could care less.

"Hey y/n...how ya been?" He rubbed the back of his neck as you ignored him. "I don't understand why you left me-"

"I'm home alone, you're God-knows-where
I hope you know, I don't think that shit's fair."

"That's the past...I've changed. Changed for you-"

"Giving you all you want and more, Giving you every piece of me, I don't want love I can't afford, I just want you to love for free, Can't you see that I was getting bored? Giving you every piece of me."

He stayed silent letting you continue for once.

"I'm not afraid anymore, What makes you sure you're all I need? Forget about it, When you walk out the door and leave me torn, You're teaching me to live without it, Bored, I'm so bored."

You finished brushing past him. It was times like this that you finally felt free. Felt happy. You had keiji, and Tsukishima was out of your life. You could move on...Finally.

You were loved.

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Heylo babies! I'm sorry for not updating often but I've been pretty down lately so it's been a bit rough. But thank you for the support and I love you all so much. Bye!