The Diary of the Butterfly

The Real Rebound

The Real Rebound

Now I'm about to tell you something and I don't want you to think I'm messy,

There was this boy and he used to call me his bestie.

The term wasn't hurting anybody so I let him be;

But he wasn't good enough to earn that tittle from me.

You see,

I was still pretty hung up on that one ex,

Even after me and rebound guy number one had called it quits;

All my life I'd never been this sad,

And the fact that I caused it made me really mad.

I was going down a path that could have brought my life to an end,

I was drinking,

I was smoking,

And I had just begun cutting myself.

I was really in need of help,

And this boy saw that and heard wedding bells.

One morning I got a text and he said I was his girlfriend,

And for us there would be no end;

I didn't agree and I didn't disagree,

I just figured he meant best friend so I just went back to sleep.

Time went by and this boy had convinced himself that I was the love of his life,

While the whole time I was trying to get the light of my life to once again see me as his wife.

This boy was the definition of toxicity,

But I couldn't leave the relationship he forced unto me,

Because he made sure to tell me that if I left,

He'd slit his wrists and I would never see him again.

I didn't want to be haunted so I stayed,

And to my surprise,

Being with him made me wise;

He was everything I hoped never to be.

Though he was troubled he was kind to me.

He showed me things about myself I didn't want to see,

And showed me that beneath all my madness there was beauty.

I was addicted to pain and he set me free.

I could never love him though and that's something he refused to see.

He was the rebound I didn't know I needed.

And I owe him so much,

Because not only did he make me strong,

He was the one who made me find the one.

TionaH🦋