TWIN [박종성]

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Tw//suicide,self-harm
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Yeseul

4 years ago

I think I just told myself that I will changed myself to be better earlier.

I just wanted to know,why they hated me so much. Is it wrong to be fat? To be nerd?

My phone suddenly chimed. Who the hell sent me text messages right now?

Mom <3

Mom just divorced with your dad. Choose who you want to live with. Me or him?

My tears running down on my cheeks as I read the message. Why I'm so unlucky today?

Got bullied until my forehead got bleeding and what now? My parents just divorced?

My dizziness haven't gone yet but why they added headache to me now?

I should have died back then...

"Oh,wait. Where I am now?"I looked around. This place is not usual place that I always go.

Shit. Why I walked without any direction again? Now, I'm lost. I don't even know where I am now.

And there's a weird building. It's the tallest building among the other buildings.

Why this building used a red light instead a normal light? It looks like a horror place where's people got murder in there.

"I want to die too"

I'm scared to go there but I wanted to kill-

Whatever.

Maybe they don't even notice me if I disappear...

I went to the building without any hesitation.

Why this place doesn't have elevators? I need to take stairs to go to the rooftop?

I might lose my fat and get skinny when I arrive at the rooftop.

Almost there...

Almost there...

Fuck,I'm tired. Maybe I should forget about my suicidal thoughts.

No,I don't want to face the tomorrow. I'm scared with what will happen next.

As I arrived at the rooftop,I saw a guy with a black hoodie.

Everything is black,from head to toe.

Is he a grim reaper or something?

I can't see clearly because my foggy glasses.

I saw him took the broken glass bottle and put it on his wrist.

Okay,he wants to kill himself too I guess?

Maybe this place is for...you know?

Maybe that's why they used red light instead of normal light?

Ugh,I don't want to think anymore. Whatever.

I should mind my own business...

"Just do it,nobody's care about you anyways"

He said as he was about to slit his wrists.

I felt what he said. I understand what he feels.

Yes,nobody's care about our existence.

But is it okay to let him die in front of me?

Jeon Yeseul,please mind your own business

Fuck no