Marry Me, Mary

Kabanata XVIII - Chasing Her

"Marry Me, Mary" book 2 of "My Mary Christmas"

Sa hindi mabilang na pagkakataon ay muli akong kumuha ng tissue at pinunas 'yon sa mata ko. Nakatitig lamang ako sa action movie na pinapanuod ko rito sa sinehan. Wala namang nakakaiyak sa scene, nagbabarilan pa nga ang bida at ang mga goons na naghahabulan sa isang secluded at malaking clothing factory.

Bumuntong-hininga ako. Malala na 'ata ako.

Today is my mother's birthday, I greeted her of course first thing in the morning pero hindi ngayon ice-celebrate ang kaarawan niya. Natapat kasi ngayong Biyernes na kung saan lahat ay may pasok pa sa trabaho kaya napagdesisyonan na lang nila Mama't Papa na sa Linggo na lamang ito ganapin.

So, what am I doing here in this cinema? Nah, I am just killing time 'cause I took an effin' day off. I deserve it after Henrie and his fiancée bullied me over Zac. And why am I crying? I don't know I just feel like it. Ugh, of course there's a reason why! Yeah, my fiancé, I am thinking over about our conversation last night to the point I only got 3 hours of sleep - damn him.

He loves me, God, he loves me and he means it. I feel it, I heard it, it feels so fuckin' right in my ears and I'm weeping over that fact - I am so confuse! He is giving me mix signals! One moment he's with me, torturing me with his smart ass remarks, ridicules my height, his obvious moves to make me kiss him, the way he take cares of me like I'm the queen of his own world - everything is perfect, it feels surreal but then reality hits me because at the end of the day, there's Honey - na mas pipiliiin pa niya kaysa sa'kin.

"Sure the movie's not a touchy feely stuff," said the man who sits down beside me.

Kumuha ako ng tissue at suminga rito, hindi pinukulan ang lalaking tumabi sa'kin.

"What are you doing here?" malamig kong tanong.

"I don't know," payak niyang tugon.

"Yeah, you don't know," sarkastiko kong banggit.

"You should turn off that GPS of yours if you don't want me following you around."

"What if I really want you following me around?" hamon ko.

"Good. But not be able to touch you when I'm with you? That sure hell is an agony."

"What are you doing here?" pag-uulit ko sa una kong tanong, hindi inalintana ang pambobola niya sa'kin.

Bola nga ba? Mahal ka nga niya 'diba? He only said it last night. He even begs you not to give up.

Maybe he's bored last night and just wants to play with my feelings. Damn, if that's the truth napaka-cruel naman ng fiancée ko.

Poor heart, I must've secured you in a vault para hindi ka na makita't masaktan pa. Hindi ka ba nagsasawa? Paulit-ulit na lang.

"Eva told me you headed out, she's worried about you - I mean, them," tukoy niya kaila Mama't Papa isama na rin si Adan.

"I'm okay, you see," iminwestra ko ang aking sarili. "There's nothing to worry about."

"You're crying," puna niya.

"Nasa to do list ko ngayong araw ang umiyak," matigas kong sabi. Tumayo na ko at mabilis na lumabas ng sinehan.

"Mary," tawag niya at sumabay sa paglakad ko.

"What?" tiim-bagang kong sambit.

"I love you," nagsitayuan ang balahibo ko dahil sa pagbulong niya ng tatlong salitang 'yon. Agad akong lumayo sa kanya at binato ang panyong hawak ko sa mukha niya.