| A Fear In Love | ✔️ REWRITING

Chapter Five

Julissa in MM

"There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted vision of people who embrace life." ~  John Lennon 

Alyssa

"One isn't necessarily born with courage, but one is born with potential. Without courage, we cannot practice any other virtue with consistency. We can't be kind, true, merciful, generous, or honest." ~ Maya Angelou

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I wake up to see nick in my bed. I peeked under the covers to see if we still had clothes on because all I remember from last night is me and nick drinking a lot than passing out.

"Nick, wake up." I shook him.

"Leave me alone, i'm trying to sleep." he whined.

"Nick, I need you to get up now." 

"ugh alright." he opened his eyes rubbing them and pulling the covers from over his body.

"Did we...? I looked at him.

"No we did not have sex, you were way to drunk so I put you in your bed.

"Than why the fuck were you in my bed also."

"I didn't feel like sleeping on the floor." he chuckled.

nick stood up and put on his shirt, when I tell you he had the nicest body ever.

"Why are you staring at me?" nick asked.

"I'm not even looking at you nick, I was just staring into space."

"If that's what its called when your admiring my body than I guess we can call it that." he chuckled.

"Get out nick, before my dad catches you." I smiled.

"Alright... I love you." he smirked.

"Did he just say he loved me?" there is a lot of things going through my head at this moment

as nick was opening the door, my dad was coming out of his room.

"Nick why were you coming out of my daughters room." my dad said as he stopped nick from leaving.

"Alyssa can I see you for a moment." he called me.

"Shit." I mumbled to myself.

"I'm coming." I got out of bed and made my way to my room door.

"Whats going on here." he looked at us.

"Nothing dad. He was just checking up on me because I wasn't feeling well last night." 

"Why didn't you tell me you weren't feeling well." my dad looked at me.

"Why are you lying to your dad?" nick whispered in my ear. "

"shut up nick, do you want to get killed? because that is what my father would do to you if he found out you stayed over." I whispered in nicks ear.

"Alyssa are you having sex?" my dad looked at me.

"Omg... dad no... why would you think that?" I lied straight to his face, I had lost my virginity when I was 16 years old but what do I look like telling my dad that.