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another boy finds you self harming (part one , ashton)

It had just happened. You couldn't stop the relapse from happening. You felt completely under control of the blade and then it just... happened. You were trying to silence your sobs so the boys downstairs wouldn't hear you. Luke was over, going over some song lyrics with your boyfriend. It was awful timing but it happened. Suddenly footsteps grabbed your attention, making you automatically silence yourself. You tried to stay still as you realized your bedroom door was wide open. A body suddenly appeared, walking by. You let out a deep breath, thankful that they didn't see. But you spoke too soon. "(Y/N)?" It was Luke, standing in the doorway. Your eyes shot up, making eye contact with him. "What's that?" he asked quietly, pointing to the blood stained towel on your wrist. "I... I..." You couldn't speak, you were frozen. "Wait..." It was as if you could see the gears moving in his head. "(Y/N) you didn't..." You panicked, standing up. "Please... Don't tell Ashton. Please." "I have to! You hurt yourself!" He came over, gently grabbing your good hand and leading downstairs.