High School // Malec

Chapter 22.

Two arms was what woke me up the next time. My body was still numb from the cold air and I felt how my already blue lips were shaking. My eyelids felt heavy and it felt almost impossible for me to open my eyes.
- Magnus, you need to wake up
The familiar voice rang through my head like the call of an angel. I don't know if the voice sounded soft because I was heavily drugged by the freezing weather outside or because of some other unexplainable reason.
- Come on, open your eyes
I pushed all of my limits and when my eyes finally flew I open after what felt like years, it felt like I wanted to scream out in happiness.
- Dammit, you scared me
Everything was blurry for a while, but as my eyes finally adjusted to the bright light, I saw how Raphael sat and held my trembling body in his arms. He looked at me with a small smile on his lips, but his eyes told me a different story. He was worried about me, but I can't really blame him. If I would have found Raphael passed out down at the cemetery, I would probably freak out and call the police or something like that.
- How did you find me? I asked and felt how my voice almost broke
- You weren't home and since I remember how you used to come here everyday, it was worth a shot, Raphael answered and the barley visible smile didn't leave his lips
It was pretty unusual to see Raphael smile, even if it was just a small one. He always looks so damn serious.
- Thank you, I whispered
I felt how my eyelids started to flutter again but this time, I didn't dare myself to fall back asleep.
- We need to get you to the hospital, Raphael said and stood up
Somehow, he helped me up from the cold ground and together we walked over to his car that stood parked on the parking lot. I don't remember much of what happened next but somehow, I ended up in one of the many beds at the hospital with a machine attached to one of my arms and my cold body was wrapped up in a lot of different blankets. To my surprise, Raphael hadn't left my side once, but honestly, I didn't want him to leave me either. I was scared to be alone and since Raphael is the only one who cares enough about me, I felt happy that he was sitting on a chair that was placed beside my bed.
- Do you want to talk about what happened? Raphael asked after a while of comforting silence
- Not really, I answered
- Magnus, you almost fucking died tonight. I don't know what's going on in your life right now, but you can't pretend like everything is okay
- I fucked up
- How? Raphael asked and looked at me with confused eyes
- I really thought that Alec would stay with me, but I was wrong. He left me without a reason and and now he won't even answer on my text messages, I answered
- Why do you even care about him? He's a freaking loser, Magnus. Spend some time with people who cares about you instead, like me
- You don't understand
- Of course I understand. You're not the only one who got left behind. Ever since you started that stupid project with Alec, he's the only one on that stupid mind of yours. I mean, have  you even thought about asking me how I'm doing? Raphael asked with a extremely angry voice
- What are you talking about?
- I threatened Alec that you would leave him after your project so he could back off and leave you alone because I miss you, you stupid idiot. You're my best friend but these last couple of weeks, you haven't payed me any attention at all, Raphael said and stood up from the chair
- Wait, you threatened Alec? He left me because of you? I asked and felt how my heart started beating faster
- Yes, Raphael almost screamed
- Get the fuck out, you fucking moron. How could you do this to me? You ruined everything, I screamed and felt how tears made their way down my cold cheeks
- I'm your best friend, Magnus. That stupid Lightwood boy is never going to love you the way I do
- Fuck off, I answered and greeted my teeth like some kind of vampire
- Fine, screw you. You only have yourself to blame, Raphael answered and stormed out of the room
Tears continued making their way down my cheeks like a freaking waterfall and no matter how hard I tried to keep myself together, I couldn't. I was broken. Everyone I cared and loved had left me all alone with an abusive stepfather. God, why am I even still alive?

// TBC \\

I'm sorry that this sucks and that I haven't updated