High School // Malec

Chapter 69.

The day came when I could not keep lying to Magnus about what actually happened to his stepfather. My poor heart shattered into a million pieces as tears streamed down his beautiful caramel cheeks, but I could not keep fooling my own boyfriend that a part of his broken "family" is alive when I clearly know that he isn't. He is dead and no matter how fucking much we pray for that douche to come back, it will never happen. For some horrific reason, I thought Magnus would not care about his stepfathers death, but
I couldn't be more wrong. The death of his stepfather only became 1 more suicide that Magnus had to deal with and it doesn't matter that the person who committed suicide this time is a abusive son of a bitch. Mags will still have to live with the painful fact that one more person left him and I don't think he'll survive that. Sure, he told me that he's relieved to find out that the person who has beating him raw is finally dead and out of the picture, but he is also blaming himself and I hate him so much for doing that. At the very moment, Magnus and I are sitting next to each other on my bed in complete silence. It's been maybe five minutes since one of us said the last sentence and I'm losing my own stupid mind. I honestly thought that Magnus was doing a lot better, but I made it all worse. I still don't regret telling Mags the truth tho because a good relationship can never be built on stupid lies, but I probably should have waited until he was feeling well enough to handle the painful truth. I understand if all of you are confused especially since it can be pretty hard to know if the death of his stepfather was good or bad, but I think it is just because he doesn't know either. It is always painful to lose someone close to you, even though if you only have lived together under the same damn roof for your whole life and you both pretty much hate each other. Wow, I realise that all of this sounds fucking stupid and I'm not surprised if all of you do not understand anything that I am trying to explain, but I'm pretty much also trying to get a grip of this.
- Are you okay, baby? I whispered as
I looked over at my pretty boyfriend
I'm not sure why I whispered, but it didn't feel very right to talk out loud, especially not in ugly times like now.
- Yeah, Magnus said and I could see how he tried his best to flash a smile
- I know that I have said it about ten times before, but I want you to know that you can talk to me, I said and at least tried to flash a small smile back
- Alec, I appreciate that you're ready to talk to me about my feelings, but I can't put this on you, Magnus sighed
- Why?
- You have been to hell and back this last couple of months and I seriously can't put more stress on you because that's all you have been feeling since the day Max died, Magnus answered
- Fine, I know that these last months has been hell, but that won't stop me from taking care of you, Mags, I said
Instead of waiting for Magnus to say something, I pressed my lips against his in a passionate kiss. His pink lips always feels soft against my own and I will never get used to the awesome scent of sandalwood. My plan wasn't to keep the kiss especially long, but I could not pull away when I suddenly felt how Magnus started to get more into the kiss than I thought he would when I pressed my lips against his. I am not complaining though because like I have mentioned before, his lips are perfect and I can not get enough.
- I love you, I whispered
- I love you too, Magnus said and the little smile on his lips was 100% real

// TBC \\

Wow guys, this might actually be the most confusing chapter I ever have written🙈

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-Mathilda