The Angel Of Darkness (Sam Winchester Fanfic)

Chapter 17: Loved?

(Azriel's Pov)

After yesterday's lazy day with Sam, I had a lot of fun to be honest. I didn't think much of everything and all my focus was on Sam, he made me happy and relaxed and I can't be any happier...but I still have to figure all of this out and during my time with Sam I think it's made me realized that I should give my siblings a second chance but it's not going to change the fact that they hurt me but maybe I call them back and this time we talk instead of me trying to kill them and we go from there.

I still had trouble sleeping but I did manage to fall asleep, just not until a little after midnight, but Sam again stayed up with me and made sure I was okay and I think I was...I mean I trusted my father, Sam, Dean and my aunts...all that's left is to talk to my siblings again and get some closure and clarity...

It was 6am when I woke up next to Sam. He was sleeping peacefully with his arms wrapped around me. I smiled tiredly and sighed as I carefully got out of his arms trying not to wake him up and headed out of his room and downstairs. I brewed some coffee and sighed as I prayed for my siblings and with a gust of wing and flutter of wings, I opened my eyes seeing them really here.

They looked confused tho. I took a deep breath and sighed "What? No good morning murder?" Lucifer teased; I rolled my eyes "I just wanted to talk again. Get some closure so all this can just fucking end" I stated, my siblings nodded "Coffee?" I asked, everyone nodded which made me smile as I grabbed 6 mugs and poured everyone some coffee.

They came up and grabbed their mugs which made me smile softly as I sat on the counter and my siblings sat at the table "I have a few questions" I said, "Ask away" Balthazar said, I just sighed and nodded as my heart raced "Did you mean it?" I asked, they looked confused "all of what you said?" I asked,

They frowned "of course not. We were jealous yes and because you were so different we weren't sure of how to deal with it but we did not mean a single word" Anna said, I sighed "So if I were to forgive you what happens next? Just pretend none of this ever happened?" I asked,

The others sighed "well no, we know that you won't be able to forgive or forget what we've done and that'll haunt us but we'll make it up to you. Promise" Michael said, I sipped my coffee "But we promise we'll be there for you whenever you need it and if you want to hang out that's fine too but we promise if you need anything you can tell us and call us or whatever" Gabriel said,

I sighed "Do you regret it?" I asked, everyone frowned "Of course we do. If we knew this would happen we would've never have said those things but you know how siblings can be" Balthazar said, I just nodded and sipped my coffee "Ya know. I've been up for days and thinking for weeks about all of this and sometimes I wondered if one day I killed myself how you would react and I believed that no one would care...I've been weighing options back and forth and back and forth for weeks trying to figure this out and most of me believes that you'll hurt me again and I'm just so consumed with anger and the pain that you caused that I wanna not forgive you. But then again if me and the boys were in trouble you guys would be the first angels I'd call and I wanna believe things can go back to normal but I don't think they can after all you've done...but It's exhausting to hate you guys all the time so I'm going to give you another chance" I said,

The others smiled sympathetically "We want you to know that if you did kill yourself of course we would care...because if you did that means we caused it to happen for what we did to you and we will never forgive or forget what we did either...We love you Azriel, we really do and what we did was stupid" Castiel said, "And we promise we will never ever hurt you again" Gabriel said,

"while you may be different you're right. We've all done stupid things as angels and that doesn't change the fact that you're still one of us with Darkness powers like aunt Amara and we're sorry for treating our differently" Anna said, "but if you do something stupid again chances are we'll scold you because well, you're our baby sister and that's not going to change anything" Lucifer said,

"But we are very very sorry for everything that we did to cause you so much pain" Balthazar said, "We love you Azriel and we're sorry we let our emotions get in the way of treating you like the little sister we're supposed to and we're sorry we never taught you how to do things like we were supposed to" Michael said,

I smiled softly as my heart pounded with love and I finally felt all the broken pieces piece together and this is all I wanted to hear...tears welled up in my eyes which made me smile as I finished my coffee and held my arms open "Hug me you morons" I said, everyone chuckled and joined in on the group hug "Thank you guys" I said, they smiled and kissed my head lovingly "Woah I guess we missed the family reunion" Dean said with a chuckle.

We chuckled and pulled away seeing the Winchesters finally awake "Ah boys, lovely to see you again" Lucifer said, they just glared at him which made me smile "You okay Azzy?" Sam asked, I smiled and nodded as I sniffled a bit "Just perfect" I said, "I assume you forgave them?" Dean asked, I smiled and nodded "yup...and I couldn't be any happier" I said,

Everyone smiled softly "So what now?" Sam asked, I sighed "well how about we all hang out tomorrow huh? Catch up on things?" I suggested, everyone looked at one another and nodded which made me smile "Okay well I'll see you guys tomorrow then" I said, they smiled and nodded as with a flutter of their wings, they were gone.

Sam came up to me and wrapped his arms around my waist "Are you okay?" Sam asked, I smiled softly and nodded "Couldn't be better" I said, he smiled and kissed my head "So what all happened?" Dean asked, I sighed "I called them here, we talked and everything turned out how I wanted it to" I said, "What did they say?" Sam asked, "that they never meant anything, they're sorry, they'll never hurt me again, and if I ever needed anything that they'll be there and even tho I can't forget what they did, they won't either" I said,

The boys nodded "and you did that without killing them?" Dean asked, I smiled and rolled my eyes "that's what lucifer said. But yes, I did...it was hard but I managed" I said, the boys smiled softly which made take a deep breath "so what now?" Dean asked, "Breakfast? Let's go out and eat" I said,

The boys smiled and nodded as we headed up to our rooms to get dressed for today. I was wearing simple jeans and t-shirt because why bother really? I brushed my hair, put it up in a good bun, slid on my shoes and headed out of my room and met up with the boys who smiled as we headed out of the bunker and to a place for breakfast.

When we got there, we hopped out, headed in and found a booth. We sat down and got started with drinks and while Dean flirted with the waitress like always. Sam wrapped his arm around me and kissed my head "you seem chipper" Sam noticed,

I smiled and rolled my eyes "All my life I just wanted something from my siblings...I wanted their love and affection and I just wanted them to be the siblings I wanted them to be and now I'm finally having this chance to have my siblings I never had before and everything they said and everything you guys and my aunt and father said just made me has made me realize things better and now this is my chance to make things right...we've all done stupid shit and we can't take that back but we can fix things now and move forward and that makes me feel better and I can finally have everything I wanted" I said,

The boys smiled softly "we're glad that you're feeling better Angel" Sam said who kissed my head, I smiled softly and nodded as the waitress came back with our drinks and asked us what we wanted to eat which we ordered some breakfast and just spent this time together...

I had to figure out plans for tomorrow tho, "So what's the plan for tomorrow?" Dean asked, I thought for a moment "Why don't you guys call all your friends and family over so you can introduce me and we all can just hang and talk and I get to know everyone else in your life" I said,

The boys smiled and nodded as they got into contact with their friends and other family members and I was excited...I haven't met any of the guys friends yet and I was excited to meet them. When the waitress came back with our breakfast, we all just talked, smiled and laughed and these were the days I lived for and honestly I couldn't be any happier...

(Short and shitty chapter but enjoy!)

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