𝕆𝔹𝔼𝕐 𝕄𝔼 𝕆ℕ𝔼𝕊ℍ𝕆𝕋𝕊; 𝚖𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚕𝚢 𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚜𝚝🦋

💤𝔹𝔼𝕃ℙℍ𝕀𝔼𝕩𝔾ℕ!𝕄ℂ - ʜᴇꜱɪᴛᴀᴛᴇ ᴀ ʟɪᴛᴛʟᴇ ʟᴏɴɢᴇʀ

[11:37 pm]
Dear Diary,

Hesitate for me longer,
please?
Just a little longer.
I see you down the hall,
eyeing me up,
but I'm no piece of meat.
Wait a little longer,
I beg of you.

Nothing's been the same:
nothings been able to be the same since you discovered I am a descendant of your beloved.
I don't blame you for being cold towards me,
but it was such a sudden change,
don't you agree?

Simeon sat opposite me
in history today
and asked me
"You two used to be best friends, didn't you?
What changed?"
I told him I wish I knew.
Truthfully,
I do know.

I know that you like to think we humans are weak,
meaningless,
horrid,
monstrous and so much more.
I know how you look at me:
I see that glint in your eye.
The same glint that shine brighter than any star or angel I've ever laid my eyes upon.
That glint of murder.
Of urgency.
Of sin.
You wanted me dead then and you still do now,
for that glint has returned to your eyes.

But why?
We were best friends after the news,
or so I thought...
Is this another one of your mind games,
Belphie?
Just like the last one,
which also resulted in my murder?
Was your 'I love you' a lie,
too?
It seems as if everything you say has no weight to it.
You know what you're doing,
I'm sure of it.

I pray you never read or even find this,
for I know my head will be placed upon a silver platter,
but this is therapeutic.
I can't turn to anyone else about this,
can I?
You'd kill me quicker that way
- if you found out -
besides,
I know you see that look in my eye too.
The pitiful,
begging,
pleading look I send your way whenever I look at you.
It seems my tactics have been working,
you havent tried to turn me to putty in your hand completely yet.

I've made you hesitant,
haven't I?
I know I have and you cant deny it,
Belphegor.
You would've killed me ages ago if we hadn't been so close prior.
So please,
hesitate a little longer,
spare me my life those few seconds or minute longer.
Even 5 seconds I'm grateful for,
that's 5 more seconds of love,
breathing,
happiness,
of life ultimately.

So hesitate as much as you want,
I welcome it.
But by the time you have found this,
if you ever do,
I'm probably dead already.
You can't fend your hunger off for much longer,
I sense it.
Its alarming.
I never know when you're going to pounce:
you lurk everywhere.
So please,
hesitate a little longer.

[MC]