Letter Three

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Dear Mark,

I taught myself
how to be proud of who I was.

After spending 19 years being someone I wasn't, I wanted to spend the rest of my life being honest.
Wholeheartedly,
unapologetically, honest.
And me.
I wanted to just be me.

I am a transgender woman.
There's nothing you or any other individual full of hate can say or do that would change that.
Nothing.

By the time we shared a class and you became determined to make my life a living hell, I had allies that supported me.

I had my sister across the way, Dove.
Fleur, the woman who ended things with you after one date where'd you'd treated the waiter horribly.
I had my sister Feebs and the amazing person that was Page.
Strong willed Dean had joined my makeshift family by then too.

And I had Jin.
I had real affection.
Something that evolved into true love.
True love that I fear you'll never be able to possess.

I pity you for that.

I taught myself how to be proud of who I was by taking Page's advice and joining the LGBTQ+ community on campus.
It was them that furthered my education on sexuality and gender identity.
They showed me how to deal with the hate that we LGBTQ+ people will always face.
They created a safe space for me to rant after everyday spent near your presence.

It hurt at first to hear you call me by those names.
Samuel.
Boy.
Freak.
Tranny.
Dick Girl.

It hurt.

And then,
it didn't.

Samuel?
He was a pretty good guy.
He did the best
with what he was given.
He made the best
of what used to be a horrible situation.

Boy?
Yeah, once upon a time
a long time ago.

Freak?
Jin likes to think so.
He's always down for the new kinks
I like to try in bed.

Tranny?
Fuck yeah I'm transgender.
What about it?
I'm not ashamed.

Dick Girl?
Well, now, that's just inaccurate.
I haven't been Dick Girl since he got chopped off and I got the cat.

Mark, you tried so hard
to tear me down.
Now, I can only laugh about it.
You tried so hard.
And you failed.
Mark, you failed.

You.
Failed.

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