I Want More (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 32

Chapter 32

(Antonio's pov)

I heard gasps as I smashed my lips against Xavier's. I held in a moan that was threatening to spill feeling is warm lips against mine. It feels like forever since we kissed.

      I don't want to move away. I just want him. I started to slowly move my lips against his. But I didn't get a response. I started to pull away but felt Xavier's hands at my waist I smiled internally. But was pushed away making me stumble back almost falling but I caught my balance. I looked at X feeling tears welling in my eyes. X whipped his mouth with his hand looking disgusted.

"The fuck are you doing?" He asked calmly but he was like a ticking time bomb at this point

"I- I- well-"

"How about you go upstairs to talk?" I heard angel suggest making me look away from Xavier's furious gaze

I looked around the room seeing everyone looking at me and X. I nodded walking upstairs I didn't hear footsteps behind me so I just went into Xavier's room sitting on his bed. I folded my hands in my lap looking down playing with my thumbs.

I'm so stupid. Why would I think that he wants me I fucked up. Okay now that I think about Zander and I are a little too close for comfort. I got this no more touching only hugs.

         I'm not used to having a boyfriend since I haven't had one in so long the funny thing is that it was Zander's bestfriend. Oh Randal, he was a dick but even though they were best friends Zander beat the living hell out of him when Randal hit me in front of Zander. Now that I think about it I think I deserved that one but at the same time he kept doing it even when I didn't do anything or even  over stupid stuff like not being in the mood to have sex.

          The first time was amazing but he just went too far I like it rough but to a certain extent. Sadistic Bastard. Ever since then Zander was protective of me and we were Freshman at the time. Watch, I see Randal at school since I'm thinking about him I've seen him walking through the hallway but never talked to him.

           Then there was Maxwell who only wanted sex when we did it woke up by myself with a note that said thanks for making it 27. I'm so glad I used a condom. Then Zeek who was sweet but was a schizophrenic. I think I have a sign on my forehead that says mentally insane come over here.but I don't regret them they were really good in bed but not mentally stable. Does that make me a hoe? I've had sex and done sexual things with 8 people. At least I know all their names. Let's list them shall we Randal, Carson, Tyler, Camron, Maxwell, Zeek, Kevin and Xavier. Maybe that's why Xavier doesn't want me around guys I'm such a slut.

I sighed laying back onto the bed looking at the cable box seeing it say 10:32. He won't be here anytime soon I should have brought food.

I want him to want me as much as I want him. Damn try saying that two times fast.

"I want him to want me as much as I want him. I want him to want me as much as I want him." I said out loud fast as I looked at the ceiling

I bit my lip thinking about what happened down stairs. He looked so grossed out but I was trying to hold in my moans. What if he know how many guys I've been with and that's why he is disgusted by me.

          I mean who would want a sluts lips on theirs but atleast I've only kissed three people in my life. Kissing is just too intimate to me honestly I've only kissed Randal Zander and Xavier oh and Cameron he caught me off guard while we were in the middle of it.