"Bakit ang bait mo na sa'kin?" tanong ko sa kanya and he look at me like he can't believe what I said.
"Talagang yan pa ang naisip mo, sinisilaban ka na nga dahil sa lagnat mo!" he said and I just frown because of that.
"Kasi naman e. Hindi ako sanay na ganyan ka sa'kin." I said and wipe my tears and he just laugh at me.
At hindi ako masasanay, because if he is like this to me baka talagang pagsisihan ko na tinulungan ko siya. I don't want to feel that to him because he's still in love to someone else. And I'm just beside him to help him forget Saffira.
To help him forget his one sided love and hindi kasama doon yung mahulog ako sa kanya. I am just here to help.
"Masanay ka na, ganito ako pag nakapasok ka na sa buhay ko." he said at tumayo na and go to my kitchen at lumabas doon na may dala ng tubig. "Kumain ka na ba?" tanong niya at umiling naman ako at tinuro yung paper bag na dala niya.
"Alam mo na luto ko yan?" he ask at tumango naman ako. "Magpapalusot pa sana ako e." he said at natawa na lang ako kahit na ang bigat ng nararamdaman ko.
"So, you are not confident?" I ask.
"At bakit? I'm a good cook and a good Engineer of your rest house. Plus I'm your boyfriend." he said at tumawa na lang ako sa sinabi niya.
Sinabayan niya na akong kumain at sinabihan na magpahinga na lang ako after I drink my medicine. And I thought magigising ako na wala na siya sa condo ko but when I saw him seating at my sofa and his laptop are on his lap and his humming a song.
Tinitigan ko lang siya until I hear him sing the song that he is humming.
More than words
Is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say
That you love me
'Cause I'd already know
"How easy, it would be to show me how you feel." I said kaya napaliingon siya sa'kin and I smile at him.
"Okay ka na?" he ask at tumango naman ako before sitting beside him.
"Bakit nga ba ang dali lang para sa'kin na makita yung totoong nararamdaman mo." I said at nakita ko naman paano siya nagulat.
"Because, Amstel. The first time I saw you nakita ko na agad kung ano yung feelings na itinatago mo. That is why I called you pathetic. I saw how you tried to be okay knowing that Saffira is in love with someone else."
"That is all I can do." he said.
Parehas kaming natahimik sa napag-usapan. But I stiff ng maramdaman kong bumagsak na lang yung ulo niya sa balikat ko.
"Hey,"
"Patulog lang, I just need rest." he said and mas lalong pinatong yung ulo sa balikat ko.
I just let him sleep and I don't know but I can stop myself but to hold his hand and my eyes widen when he also hold my hand. Aalisin ko na sana yun pero mas lalo niyang hinigpitan kaya hinayaan ko na lang.
Is he sweet like this to Saffira every time? Ang swerte na ni Saffira kung ganun. I imagine this Amstel acting like this to Saffira. Now I salute her for not falling to this sweet Amstel.
Because for me it's not hard falling for him but I don't want to because I know in the end I will be the one who will be defeated. I don't want to be like him. Falling to a person who is already in love with somebody else.
"I wonder how come she didn't fall to you." bulong ko.
"Because her heart is already taken from the very beginning." he said at nagulat pa ako dahil akala ko ay tulog siya.
BINABASA MO ANG
Embracing Your Poison
Teen Fiction"Is it really possible to embrace someone's poison, the poison that can make me fall again." Amstel Jacob Bandiala is the guy who badly wants to move on from his first love. He love her for how many years but he ended up just supporting her as a fri...
