(2018)
Alex just finished with the monkeys new album tranquility base hotel and casino and as expected with Alex's lyrical talent the album is amazing And to top it all off we just had a baby boy we named him 'liam miles Mathew Turner' Alex choose his middle names to be after two of his best mates and if we have another child we would use nicks and Jamie's name
Alex had to stay in France for a little bit while making the album but he finished just in time for liams arrival
Now tour was coming up soon and Alex wants me and Liam to come with him
I was breastfeeding Liam while my husband was watching breaking bad on the telly
"Luv?" Alex said I looked up at him for a brief moment
"Yeah" I replied "I were finking if weh try for another babeh and if it's a girl I fink weh should call her jamieh-lee" he said causing me to let out a laugh
"Alex I love your thinking but Liam isn't even a week and a half old yet and your already thinking about baby number two" I said giggling Alex rolled his eyes and chuckled
After feeding Liam and changing him I putted him to bed I turned on the baby monitor incase he wakes up
I went downstairs and sat on the couch taking the remote changing the show to peaky blinders since it's something me and Alex still have to watch
Before I pressed play I was waiting on Alex he was making something to eat in the kitchen so I decided to check Instagram
I saw I had a message request I checked I thought probably one of Alex's fans to say something about the album or to ask about Alex or the baby but I was a girl called Louise verneuil sent me a message I looked on her profile to see that she was a very pretty woman I decided to read her message
As I was reading her message it was something I definitely did not expect to see she sent a picture of her in bed with someone next to her I zoomed in the picture I saw Alex's face beside her the the picture she wrote is this your man
I throw my phone to the other couch Alex came back from the kitchen I had tears in my eyes
'How could he cheat on me he can't even deny it she was topless and so was he and he wouldn't just share a bed with a random girl' I thought I didn't want to believe it but there's no way I could think he didn't do it it's in plain site
"Press plaeh babeh" he said sitting next to me
I couldn't even find the power to move the second I heard his voice i just started to cry
"Hey wha's wrong luv tell mEh" he said hugging me I instantly flinched and pulled away
"Y/n honeh wha's wrong tell mEh" he said again but this time with hurt and sorrow
"Who's Louise" I mumbled my elbows on my knees covering my face with my hands
"Wha'" was all Alex could say
"I said who the fuck is she Alex" I said a bit louder but not loud enough to wake Liam up
Alex didn't say anything he just putted his head down in shame
I grabbed my phone and showed him the messages "what the fuck is that Alex" I asked tears in my eyes
"It were a mistake I was shitfaced I didn't kno' wha' I were doing I kno' it's no excuse but it's true" he said tears started to form in his eyes
"She was nothing she was nothing" I scoffed
"When was this" I asked
"When I were in France a week before I came home" Alex admitted
"When I was about to have Liam" I snapped
"You shagged that cow when I was here waiting on you coming home thinking you were busy with your album when I was days away from having your baby" I shouted I definitely woke Liam up but I was too angry to even think about anything else
"I didn't mean it I swear I luv yeh and I luv Liam no one else" he said in between sobs
"Well you've should've thought about that before you shagged coco fucking Chanel behind my back" I snapped walking towards our bedroom
"Where yeh going" Alex asked
"To bed you can find a hotel to sleep in tonight" I said walking into the bedroom Alex followed me
"No luv please don't do this I'm sorreh I know tha's not enough but I promise she never meant anyfing I promise I luv yeh no one else I want yeh and only yeh" Alex said crying his heart out
I sighed climbing into bed "I need space I feel sick looking at you Alex" I said tears still in my eyes
"I'll give Yeh space I'll sleep in the other room but please don't leave mEh I need yeh" he begged me not to leave him I wasn't going to leave him at all I know it sounds stupid but I love him too much to even think about leaving him
"I'm not going to leave you Alex but you really broke me with what you did it going to take time for me to trust you again I think it's bed if you sleep in the other room for a while" I said Alex was crying more I never seen anyone cry as much as him
"I understand luv I'll stay in the other room I'll give Yeh space but I don't want teh staeh anywhere else I don't want to leave yeh and Liam" he said he went to kiss me but I turned my head away "please luv" he begged me again
"Fine" i sighed and gave him a quick kiss it still felt like the very first time I kissed him
Alex pulled away And made his way out the room "I luv yeh" he said once he was at the door
"I love you too" I said
Once Alex left I tried to sleep but I couldn't it was so empty without Alex I checkedthe baby monitor baby Liam was still asleep
I got out of bed it must've been about 1:30 in the morning I made my way to the spare bedroom to hear sobbing I opened the door to see Alex sitting on the bed with his knees up to his chest crying
"Alex come to bed" I said
"But I fough yeh wanted space" Alex mumbled between sobs
"It's unbearable without you please come to bed" I begged Alex got up and made his way over to me
I grabbed his hand and we made our way to our room we got into bed "I'm so so sorreh Y/N I'm a fookin wank husband and a wank dad" he said kissing my head
"You fucked up as a husband but you've got a second chance but you never fucked up as a dad" I said giving him a kiss on the cheek
"I promise if I have teh go teh a different country you and Liam are coming wif mEh" he said
As I was about to shut my eyes I heard Liam cry from the monitor "I'll get him" Alex said
"He needs fed" I replied "I'll bring him in he can sleep in here the night" Alex said making his way over to our sons room he came back with Liam in his arms he was so tiny in his dads arms it was so cute my heart melted like ice cream in the sun (that last bit sound super cheesy)
Alex handed me Liam and I fed him while I was feeding him Alex went back into Liam's room and brought the Moses basket in with him "can he sleep at mEh side of the bed" Alex asked I let out a chuckle "Alex you don't need to ask" I answered Alex placed the Moses basket at his side of the bed
Once I was finished feeding the baby and winded him and changed his nappy I placed him in his basket and Alex tucked him in
Alex just stared at his son with so much love and again he started to cry
"Why you crying" I asked rubbing his back
"I take everything I have for granted I love you and Liam so so much I promise I'll be a better man for you and Liam for us for everything" he said I hugged him whilst he cried into my shoulder
"Alex me and Liam love you and we're never leaving I promise let's go to sleep we need it" I said
We got back into bad Alex wrapped his arms around me pulling me closer to him
"I luv yeh Y/N" he mumbled into my hair
"I love you Alexander" I said my eyes getting heavier
