I invented this version of myself that doesn't open up to people.
A version of myself that doesn't let anyone get close enough to my heart. A version that doesn't let anyone get to the point where they could possibly ever love me.
Yet Rafe was standing before me removing all my doubts that I was unloveable.
Except when I finally looked up from my feet he wasn't standing in front of me anymore. It took me a millisecond to snap out of my trance and begin desperately looking around the room. Seeing no sight of him I ripped open the door and before thinking I took off into the pouring down rain.
I caught Rafe's back storming down the gravel driveway, judging by the power and anger in his step I ran quicker in an attempt to catch up to him.
"Rafe!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, "Stop!!" I tried again but to no avail.
My clothes were soaked through as I screamed and begged him to turn around.
I always somehow managed to find a way to fuck things up for myself. I do it without realizing or thinking and it was a fatal flaw I wish I could change about myself.
He poured his heart out in front of me and I couldn't even manage to get a word out, it was completely my fault.
I was caught in my own mind and let him slip away.
I let my Rafe slip out from my grips.
The guts it took him to finally open up to me and I left him standing there in the cold. I could never forgive myself if he walked away.
It was deja vu, except this time I wasn't the one doing the running.
"Rafe!" I screamed again "I love you, you fucking idiot!" I yelled and stopped in my step watching for a reaction.
I silently watched him halt and painfully slowly turn around to face me, the distance between us felt like miles so I used the opportunity to cautiously yet desperately approach the man I love.
"Don't say things you don't mean" Rafe said with bitterness in his voice. I tried to meet his eye contact but the nasty look on his face make my stomach churn. I took a calming deep breath but my heart rate spiked when he began turning around.
"You know I fucking mean it, everyone knows I mean it. I'm crazy about you, I love you so much it makes me fucking crazy!" I yelled hastily wiping my wet hair away from my face.
Rafe faced me again and stood with an unreadable expression.
I watched him take a step closer to me closing the space between our bodies.
"You love me?" he whispered cupping my jaw in his hands. I closed my eyes and nodded my head against his hold, "I need words babe"
"Yes, I love you...I'm in love with you" I reassured him as his face broke out into a wide grin. He was like a kid on Christmas morning and I was the reason I got to see his very rare smile.
"How the fuck have I managed to make the Willow Baldwin fall in love with me," he said with a cheeky grin making me roll my eyes.
"Shut up or I'll take it back" I scoffed and playfully slapped his chest.
"No takebacks baby, you love me" he threw his arms around me drawing me closer to his body. I couldn't help but laugh as he squeezed my waist tight and even lifted my feet off the ground.
"Let me breathe dumbass" I huffed with a fake annoyed look.
He finally dropped me carefully to the ground but I wasn't done, I snaked my arms around his torso and cuddled up to his body. I had missed his touch and wasn't planning on letting go anytime soon. I smiled as he rested his chin on my shoulder, "I know you deserve better than me" he whispered.
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Fanfiction❛two damaged people, trying to heal each other and calling it love❜ Rafe Cameron wasn't just any other kook with minor drug habits and more money than he could count He was the boy who left her heartbroken and betrayed He was the reason she couldn't...