Dangerous Love

38||Embrace

PETRA RAMIREZ

It's been a month, a month since I've spoken to Xavier. I haven't seen him yet but Ellie has, I've let her see him every other week since he's the first guy to step up and take the place of her father. I wasn't about to take that away.

She wanted to see him, she even said that she didn't want to be away from him for a long time. So I just let her go over to his house every other week.

Every time it was his week to have her, I would have Kylie take her to his house. I wasn't ready to see him yet or speak to him.

The first night I got to Kylie's place, I saw Samuel in the lobby. It was weird to see him, especially with everything he had done to me. He tried to stop me a few times to talk to me, but I just ignored him.

At times he would knock on the door and leave flowers or a box of chocolates with a small note attached to it as if I was gonna forgive him for the stuff he did to me.

But enough about all of the boy drama, today was the first day of me getting an ultrasound sound for my baby. I was excited but at the same time kinda nervous, it's been a while since I've gotten one and I still have to tell Xavier.

The only person who knows I'm pregnant is Kylie, when I told her that it was twins I was having she freaked but then calmed down and punched a hole in the wall for some reason.

We're getting that fixed.

But besides that, Ellie is with Xavier's parents right now. They asked if they could take her to the park for a little bit.

Right now I'm stress cleaning, trying to get my mind off the thought of everything. The main thing is Xavier.

He's been on my mind for the past month now, and for some reason, I can't get him out of my mind.

The sound of someone knocking on the door makes me get out of my thoughts, I set the Clorox cleaner down as I walk over to the door while taking off the yellow gloves.

Gotta stay safe.

I opened the door and immediately shut it as soon as I saw Samuel's face.

"Petra, can we please talk." He says through the door.

I don't say anything, I just stay silent. I didn't want to talk to him at all. I wasn't even expecting him to come up to the apartment and talk.

I exhale deeply before speaking, "Samuel, I don't want to talk. Please leave me alone."

I could hear him let out a sigh, "Alright, sorry to bother you Petra. I was just hoping that we could talk about what happened, you know? I just can't forgive myself until you have forgiven me."

Don't open the door Petra. Don't.

Placing my hand on my chest, I turned around and opened the door, "Come in."

Samuel walks in and I shut the door behind me before walking into the kitchen and sitting down at the table, Samuel follows behind me as he sits down across from me and a small smile tugs on his lips.

I sit down beside him and look at him, not wanting to say a word. I want him to speak first.

"Petra, I wanted to say that I'm so sorry. For everything, and I mean it. I didn't mean you hurt you in any way, till this day I regret it. I regret it so much, and I let jealousy get the best of me, causing me to do something that I shouldn't have done. I know apologizing won't fix it, but I just want you to know that I'm deeply sorry for what I've done." He apologized as guilt and regret were written all over his face.

"I'll never be able to take back what I did to you, nor will you forget what I did to you since the damage is already done. What I did was awful, I love you so much Petra. And ever since that night I knew I would never get you back, I am incredibly sorry for what I did." He looked down at the ground and then back at me, I could tell he was about to cry by the tear that he was holding back.

He exhales sharply, "I would do anything, just for us to be back together or at least have your forgiveness."

The pain in his voice ripples through me, making my heart ache. I know I should forgive him but deep down I don't. He doesn't deserve my forgiveness or anything, what he did to me damaged me in ways I can't forget.

Samuel slowly moves his hand closer to mine, to where the tip of his fingers is touching my hand. I quickly move my hand before letting out a deep breath.

"I'm sorry but I can't forgive you for what you did to me." I say as I look him in the eye with no emotion, "You did something to me that I will never forget when you knew damn well that I went through abuse my entire life."

Samuel sighs as he gets up, "I hope you know that I love you Petra, I've always loved you and I won't stop loving you. I know what I did was bad, and I won't forgive myself for it."

I don't say anything, I just look down at the table.

"You're in love with Xavier? Aren't you?" He asked.

I looked back up at him, and nodded my head, "I love him more than anything, right now he may have done something but I know he would never do what you did because I know he truly loves me."

"I'm sorry Petra."

"Goodbye Samuel," I say as I get up from the table and walk over to the front door.

I opened it and looked at him, he looked at me with guilt, hate, sorrow, and regret. I think he's sorry.

He softly places his hand on my arm as a tear slowly rolls down his cheek, "Goodbye, Petra."

Samuel walks out of the door and makes his way down the hallway, I shut the door and immediately slide down the door.

I squeezed my eyes shut and finally let the tears fall. I realized that I was going through this alone without anyone, I looked up at the ceiling and exhaled deeply before getting up and wiping the tears off my cheeks.

I walked into the living room and picked up my phone. I checked the time before placing my phone in my pocket and heading towards my room.

I had to change into different clothes because I didn't want to show up, looking all nasty.

Right now I just wanted Xavier and Ellie, but I just couldn't deal with all of the stuff that was going on.

I changed into a pair of leggings and a hoodie before grabbing my purse and keys.

As soon as I was about to leave I heard my phone ring, I picked it up and read the caller ID. It was Xavier, he was calling me.

I answered and put the phone up to my ear, "Hello?"

"Something is wrong with Eliana, she's throwing up blood. Like really bad." He panicked through the phone, and immediately my heart dropped as I quickly ran out of the apartment not bothering to lock it.

"I'm on my way," I say as I hang up and run straight to my car.

It's bad to have a kid throwing up blood, like really bad. God, if anything bad happens to her I'll never be able to forgive myself for what happens to her. I probably won't be able to live.

Please, let my sweet girl be okay.

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