Before I say Goodbye

More than you ever DID

It's not your fault
That they left
It's not your problem
That they didn't care
It's not your duty
To care when they never did.
It's time for you let go
Cause they never belonged here
All those questions
And sleepless nights
Wondering where could I have gone wrong
Instead of being right.
The pain and the sorrow
The anger and denial
Questioning myself,
What's the wrong with me?
Cause people then tend
Without explanation.
After years of searching and crying
Asking god to answer me this denial.
I can finally see,
Even though my eyes were always open wide.
It's not me, not my fault.
I did everything i could
More than I should
For people who never meant to stay.
Even those whom I thought were my best friends.
Now I am not angry or cursing at my luck
Cause my time never meant least to them
So why should I cry.
Or give more value to them.
When they were ordinary to begin with
I made them special in my eyes.
And I someday they will return
The once that regret or
For the care and love that no other gave them.
I am sorry I am not there
Cause I have moved on from you
Not cause I stop caring
Or turned into a cold hearted bitch
But cause I leaned to appreciate myself more
More than you ever did.
💛💛💛