Before I say Goodbye

I want to disappear

Another year another day
Thought this time will be better
This time I learned
But no, it's the same vicious circle all over again
I was good not trusting
Good not letting people in
Now I am alone sitting and crying
Well jokes on me, I deserved it
I got too familiar
I let my guard down only to be hurt again
We fall down on the same path
Cause we never learn from it
I was okay to walk away from all of it
No attachment no feelings
It was better
But no, I had to make friends
I had to find love
I had to be happy and
I dared to choose to find happiness in others
It's my fault to be loved
It's my fault to hope
You will never be happy
Even if u get everything u desire.
I will still cry and hurt
When I scream I need help no one listens or cares
It's a lie when people say if u need help the ask
Cause your all alone in the end.
Crying and hurt.
No one to share or talk.
The people u thought ur own
Are the one ends up hurting u more.
I implore myself. Stop this cicle
The only way out is
Let it go
Walk away
Build up that wall
And don't let anyone in.
You will be alone but least not hurt by another.