Before I say Goodbye

Steer Clear

Don't beat yourself up
Cause after all the hurt
We still let people in
Still lend them a shoulder
No matter how much it hurt
We still repeat the cycle
We do learn from each pain
From the heartbreak and sorrow we get
But still keep getting hurt
Cause of giving chances to once who enter our lives.
Otherwise we might risk lose the once
Who are noble and deserved to be loved.
Now I am just addicted to the pain
Cause I am giving chances to the useless
I want to move on break away from this chain.
Sometimes I do, & sometimes I am back to square one.
Is it not enough lord?
I am tired of being the emotional punching bag for those
The once came to me when had no one
And left as fast when go someone
It's kinda irritating to still let them in
As because of the cold hearted bitch.
If I was the villian as they treat me to be
I rather burn them with kerosine
Than to let them go free.
Patience is not me after killing all parts of me
I rather just want them to suffer like they did to me.
I don't want or mean harm seriously
But it's good to know your being punished for your crimes.
They say reap what you sow,
Is like a revenge is a dish best served cold.
Sleep in the bed you made,
Your a tragic, and I am the end game.
I hold no grudges, might have been angry at times.
I just tired, let me just get by.
I rather you don't come in my life
There is no use of crying, shouting and being for help.
Cause I tried all that literally, and no one cared.
The world is beautiful but hard to believe.
As there are people who get off to see you bleed.
As I write this, I know no one cares
Cause my last bleeding poem got no reads.
The world is ruled by the rich,
At least they don't pretend they are no hypocrite.
And the close people to you,
Always delivers the poison to your food.
I hate human being, build for companionship
Cz we are born and die alone, rest is just a blip.
I poured my heart out, but you never care at all
That's why your fake promises expire easily.
Like a car engine I am replacing people
Friends and lovers? New season new liars.
I am no sorry nor sad, to have got no friends
It's not my bad.
Finally I can love myself and be proud
Even though I am alone, in the middle of people
Who declared to be my friend
but run as soon as got new toys.
Whatever it's okay I am used to so much
I don't get shock now, just say eh .
You happiness is in your own hands don't let them take it
Respect is your own, why ask others for it.
After all this, nothing will change
The same record will play
So I sing this song,
Get lost, don't have the energy here.
You promised me the world,
When all I asked is for you let me live my way and just steer clear.