Before I say Goodbye

Death of me

from growing up till this day,

i thought life was full of pain.

never imagined there will come a day

when happiness will embrace me again.

it was beautiful and wonderland while it lasted

but all went to dust in storm that came today.

in dilemma and denial unable to find a way.

i wish to sleep and never wake up again.

for my dreams which was my salvation in the past days

now seem to have left me alone ahead.

where is salvation or mercy i pray?

to the unknown power, hope he has heard my plea

laughing and smiling through this hurt

emotional or physical both unheard.

now that the ray of sunshine has left my embrace

i am again surrounded by this gloomy pain.

give hurt they, better than getting hurt

my faith is crumbling

hope is loosing

the fight i am failing

rather just give up then fighting.

will do just that when all is lost

a new me you will see as life has to go on

and i have to life

now the innocent will become the destroyer

the part of me which was good till date

i burned it and burred it down beneath

sorry to use such a language,

but fuck it.

let the hell rise from this day