Embracing my Serotonin

Prologue

Menageries splendid with differents screams , wild pips around the high end resto bar ,going nine and a half. This is something that kept me captivating, noises and musics mixed up. I'mma get a dose of music as per requested by one of my close friend who's about to break herself out for some stupid shit reasons and relation.

"May we call on Engr. Alex Lenon Roa for a piece of song!"

Dazzling eyes and presence , resting my fingers to piano keys, closed eyes ,filling in with emotions.

Now Playing : The Once We Onced Love by Ben and Ben

Saw you singing your song the other day
It's been a long time since your eyes lit up that way
I felt the guilt build up as I looked back how things went wrong
Did I have to sweep in and scar you?

Hundreds of people listening ,screaming and cheering. Eyes filled with strong indescribable emotion flickering as i met her hazel eyes. She used to stare at me like i was the most important person in her life.

Five years, we shared the bittersweetness of our youth
Then we broke up, because sometimes it is the best thing to do
Did it ever cross your mind that maybe you hurt me too?
But I'm not taking it against you.

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I would still choose to love you against all odds

Feeling the song as i remembered the plans, the moment, and her....silliness.

Since the beginning, I never wanted anything
But to see you reach your dreams, I knew that you just wanted me
But I had dreams of my own, and I just couldn't let them go.

Eyes locked up , communicating like we owned the entire ambiance. You deserve everything my love. I'm proud of what you'd become.

So, I apologize for coming into your life
Just to break your heart to pieces, and then leave you in the night.

Loving me is painful Cassidy.

I'm used hugging a cactus my love.

And I tried my best to stay by your side
But who knew the rolling seasons would reveal that sometimes.

We aren't meant to be the one?
So, goodbye to the ones we once loved.

Nights with melancholic feeling, people watching and hearing without making a racket instantly monitoring tranquility of the place.

When things got heavy, and you expected more from me
I tried to be there to take away your tears
But I didn't notice that I was chipping away
At pieces of myself 'til there was nothing left to give
I didn't even want to live

I apologize for causing the pain my love. I'm busy dealing with my shits that i forgot to hear you. You're the missing piece i forgot to connect.

But I apologize for coming into your life
Just to break your heart to pieces, and then leave you in the night
And I tried my best to stay by your side
But who knew the rolling seasons would reveal that sometimes
We aren't meant to be the one?
So, goodbye to the ones we once loved

I was afraid with the outcomes, afraid with tomorrows and afraid with possibilities.

You were the best i have but i'm the worst you ever had.

That's the consequence for loving me...

I realized it wasn't anyone's fault at all
It's just that I wasn't built to build you up when you fall
Maybe we were meant to be a lesson to each other
But I wish you well, and I'm sorry (I'm sorry.

1..2..3 droplets of tears filling the keys, terrible emotions with a heavy blast of beating. Music is the way to inform you what i feel my love. It's slowly taking my sanity away. Regrets, pain, agony, hapiness, random without concrete dissolution of season.

Oh, I apologize for coming into your life
Just to break your heart to pieces, and then leave you in the night
And I tried my best to stay by your side
But who knew the rolling seasons would reveal that sometimes

I'm doing my best not to break down infront of her eyes, fighting the urge to take her and hug her.

We aren't meant to be the one?
So, goodbye to the ones, I wasn't meant to be the one
So, goodbye to the one I once loved.

I instantly walk my way out to the crowd not minding the voices and cheers from the audience and friends. Carrying my bag , was about to stormed out of this place.

"Cassidy Janea Castro Will you marry me?"

It took me a lot of effort to process everything i heard. Going back to the corner, seeing the guy kneeled infront of her. Their eyes that seems so lost with each other. Pieces had drops and walls been crushed.

"Yes."

The emotion i hold back , burst out. Lost in a game i started, her answers that made me shuttered.

She used to stare at me like that. She's in love to a person...

That is not me.

The darkness emerged and the melancholy taking over, before i stormed out there he is....

Embracing my Serotonin.