Embracing my Serotonin

Chapter 48

Everything has come to an end point where things should be put in one place, fragments to be kept, letting hurricanes striked by reality yet here i am still living with my baseless fantasies.

I now come to realize how loving someone takes too much of effort, passion, intense feeling brought by connections. Sometimes, the person we pursue, believing that clouds could anytime soon touch the ground are just simply a metaphor brought by the desire of sexual validation.

"Congratulations Architect Castro!"

I smiled at my workmates. "It would never be successful if hindi dahil sa tulong ninyong lahat. Congrats everyone!"

I roamed my eyes in my office. I'm happy now. I already reached the peak of my dream. I was accelerated after what happened 6 years ago. I achieved the degree that i worked hard for years in Barcelona, Spain.

"Congratulations hon!"

Nakangiting mukha ni Caellum ang bumungad sakin pagbaba ko ng firm. I immediately approach and hug him. I missed him!

"Bakit di mo sinabi na ngayon ang uwi mo!"

He just chuckled that made me roll my eyes. "I was planning to surprise you."

I looked at his face. Kung pogi siya noon, mas lalong pumogi siya ngayon. Anong hangin ba pinalanghap sakanya sa Japan?
We'd been in a relationship for a year now.

A lot of things really happened for the past years. I was planning to cut off our engagement before but he's persistent. Ilang beses ko na siyang tinaboy noon dahil masasaktan lang siya pag nanatili siya sakin. He just dismissed my harsh words and actions. He never left me. He was there when everything was already hard for me to live. He was there when everyone walked their own path while i'm still there stuck and can't even lift my strength.

Caellum was there when I was destroyed by someone who i wished to spend my life with.

"What are you looking at?"

Napabalik ako sa reyalidad dahil sa sinabi nito. He's driving. I dismissed my thoughts and smiled at him "gwapo mo."

He just chuckled."I am. Of course."

Napairap nalang ako dahil sa sinabi niya. I'm really happy , malaking kleyente ang nakuha namin. Napatingin ako sa phone ko nang mag vibrate ito. It's from my workmate.

Architect hinahanap kayo ni Miss Keziah Ruscè po. May ipapagawa raw po siya.

Napangisi naman ako dahil sa text nito. Keziah Ruscè , the Chief Executive Officer of the conglomerate group Ruscè Enterprise. She became one of my regular client after I graduated. Ang swerte ko lang talaga dahil ilang dolyar ang naibigay ni Keziah sakin.

"How's Japan?" I asked him while swallowing my meat. We're in our regular spot, in Lacosi. He wiped his mouth before holding my hand above the table napkin.

"It's hard. I need to fight the urge of going back here and take you with me." He said while staring at me. Napatawa naman ako dahil sa sinabi nito. He's such a baby.

"Para kang sira jan, dalawang buwan lang naman tayong di nagkita."

Napatawa naman ito sa sinabi ko. May business conference kasi siyang dinaluhan. He still made time for me even though he was busy being a Lawyer.

"Hon....thankyou." I said. Napatigil naman ito at kalaunay nginitian ako. Isapa yan, lage na siyang naka ngiti sakin hindi kagaya noon na napaka suplado. Masaya ang mga mata nito. I could feel his overwhelming love and affection towards me.

"I love you." he said. I just smiled at him and looked at my meal. I don't know but till now, it's still hard to drop those three words. I'm not yet ready but i'm trying to let him enter my life again.