Stay // Johnnie Guilbert

Chapter 1

TW‼️ this story contains self harm, suicide thoughts, depression, and strong language. If any of these topics trigger you, do not read.

(this is my first fanfic, hope you enjoy!)

Phoenix's pov:

It's another late night and I can't stop dissociating and staring at the ceiling, once again.

I've become so used to this but it's just an ongoing issue. I just want to sleep but my racing thoughts stay awake, keeping me awake as well.

I have school in the morning but I don't think I'm going to go. I hate school. All everyone does there is judge me because of how "different" I am from them. How I like different music, different clothes, different everything.

I really don't understand why people care so fucking much about other people's appearances and if they are so called "different" or not. It's so stupid and un mature.

And please don't even let me get started with people calling me "emo" everyday. It makes me seriously want to bang my head against a wall. Like why the hell do you even care?

And everyone judging me all the time doesn't help with me cutting. It just makes me want to hurt myself and it happens every time I break down, it's been a problem for a while now, and it's really hard to stop.

3:44 am

Jeez dude I really need to sleep. I need to stop overthinking about everything all the time and get some rest.

*Phone dings*

Why would my phone be going off at 3 in the morning ? Oh... it's this dude that barely shows up at school that followed me on instagram ? Strange.

- @johnnieguilbert787559 has started following you

I totally forgot that he existed. He like barely shows up for school. But I noticed that we have something in common, even though we never talked before. He tends to wear My Chemical Romance t-shirts a lot and that's one of my favorite bands. I own some too, and I thought that was cool.

I've always wanted to become friends with him. He seems quiet just like me, and I feel like we would have a lot more in common than just wearing Mcr t-shirts.

So I decided to follow him back. Maybe I'll have a chance at being friends with him? Hm.. I don't know probably not. I should just get some rest now. It's already 4:05.

// HOPE THIS IS GOOD FOR THE FIRST CHAPTER! //