HER Special WISH

𝟔𝟖-𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐑𝐘

RUDRANSH's POV:

Time apno ke saath kitni jaldi bit jata hai. Esa lagta hai jese yeh sab kal ki hi toh baat thi. Mera aur amayra ka milna. Dost banna. Date karna. Alag hojana.. phirse ek hojana. Humari shadi aur ab humara bacha...

It's been one month since her baby shower was done. Jaan ki delivery date pass aa rahi hai. I've packed her bag already if I case we have to leave in emergency. Nowadays I'm being more careful towards her. I can't take risk akhir teen-teen jaan ka sawal hai. Today I woke up early in the morning and saw my jaan sleeping beside me. She looked so relaxed. I decided to let her sleep. I got up and went to get ready. I have a surprise for her today. As soon as I got ready and came out of washroom I saw amayra struggling to get up. I went near her and held her hand. She got up and sat on bed. "Kaha gaye the tum? You know na I love to see you sabse phele in the morning." She said while pouting. I chuckled at her words. "Yahi tha jaan I just went to get ready so that when you wake up I can help you to get ready." I said. "Ansh Mana tum baby Bacha kehte ho but u know na I'm not actually a baby? mein khud tayar ho sakti Hu." She said and I chuckled.

"You are a baby before this baby you're my first baby jiski care karna mujhe acha lagta hai." I said while caressing her baby bump when baby suddenly kicked. "Ouch! Lagta hai apka bacha jal raha hai ki ap humse zyada pyaar karte hai." She said while giggling. I went on my knees to match her baby bump level. I started caressing her bump and said. "Sorry princess papa loves your mumma a lot but that doesn't mean papa doesn't love you. Aap bahar aao ek baar im going to spoil you a lot and we'll be in one team." I said while smiling. "Hawww abhi se team change." She said and I chuckled.

I picked her up in my arms and made her sit on the counter in washroom. She did her brush and said. "Ansh I can really do it myself." "Pakka? If you want I'll sit here beside you." I said. I don't wanna risk. "Yes baba pakka you can go." She said and I nodded. I came out of washroom and wore my clothes.

Then I went near bed to fold the blankets when I saw a book near her pillow. I know she writes diary and last time when I read her diary was the day when we got separated... I took her diary and decided to read it. I don't know if I'm doing right or wrong but I wanna know what my jaan went through when she was alone. I opened her diary and turned the page to...

March 29, 2024

Aaj apne pyaar ko khone ka ehsas mila. Apne ansh ko khone ka ehsas. Samjh nai aa raha ki usse naraz rahu ya khud par hasu. Mein kese nahi samjh payi ki aaj ladko ke liye pyaar bas ek mazak banke reh gaya hai. Par... mera ansh toh esa nai tha na? He promised me he'll never cheat on me.. toh phir why did he kiss her? Why did he allowed her to kiss him?

Ab mein kese  phir se wahi college jaa sakti Hu jaha humari itni yaade hai? Mein janti hu ki mein apne dosto ke saath galat kar rahi Hu lekin iss waqt mujhse itna kuch nai jhela jayega. Isliye mene London ke liye maa papa ko Haa kardi hai.

Rahi baat pyaar ki... woh toh jab hona tha ho chuka. Aaj ke baad kabhi kisi aur se itna pyaar nai kar paungi...

   Good bye. Love..

15 April, 2024

Kitne din bit chuke hai yaha aake. Kafi yaad ati hai Shivani ki.. mehak ki... dhruv ki.. aur... kher.. yaha mein ek ladki se mili. Rosie.. she's born here in London. And ab woh mere Aachi dost bhi ban gayi hai. We live together in one apartment. She knows everything about me and ansh.... She have seen me in my worst state. Rote hue adhi raat ko panick attack ate hue. I started taking sleeping pills. Uski yaado se bachne ke liye. Pagalo ki tarah behave kar rahi Hu pata nai kya ho raha hai... *chuckled* Kya karu.. phela pyaar adhura rehne ka Ghav hai. Itni asani se thodi na ghav bharenge..

  I miss you...

20 April,2024

Aaj doctor ke pass gayi thi.. Rosie ke saath. I was thinking about ansh...I was looking at our picture when I started crying I was craving for him. It's so difficult to forget someone. I'm carving for his touch his talks I'm craving to look at him to talk to him... but.. he..he's happy in India with sia I can't go back when I ended things there by my own. I don't wanna ruin his life. Jab doctor ke pass gayi toh unhone kaha Asthama hai... to be honest I don't even care about it. Infact I'm feeling happy ki im not well I...I don't know why but I... I don't feel like living anymore... agar Rosie nai hoti toh pata nai yaha mein akele kese reh pati...

  Im craving for you...

6 may, 2024

Aaj dhruv se baat hui.. he's actually a true friend and true brother. Despite the fact I left his best friend he is still in contact with me. He still cares about me. I asked him how ansh is doing? He said.. he..he has changed... he has become how he was before meeting me. Rude.. arrogant... but what made me shock was when he said. Ansh isn't dating sia. He has never looked at any other girl after I left him. For a moment my heart said. This is the right time.. "you should go back to him".. but my mind said "still he cheated on you by kissing her..".

I miss you..

PRESENT..

I was going to read further when someone snatched the book from my hand. I looked up to see it was amayra. I looked at her with teary eyes. I..I can't believe my jaan had to suffer so much. "I..I'm sorry.." I said while hugging her. I wrapped my hands around her waist and rested my head on her baby bump. "A...ansh what did you read?" She asked me. "Everything... everything.. that you suffered because of me. I..I'm truly sorry jaan. Mere vajhse tumhe itni problems hui." I said. "Shh... ansh rona band karo phele. Idhar dekho mere taraf." She said while sitting beside me. I looked at her and she wiped my tears. "It was all past... aur woh pyaar hi kya jo tumhe dard na de.. ansh.. Hume pyaar hua... dard hua... lekin phir bhagwan ne Hume phir se mila bhi diya." She said. "I know but.. I..I can never forgive myself for that stupid bet." I said.

"But I forgave you.. it was not only your mistake but mine too. I didn't have you chance to explain. I didn't listen to you. I left you and I know I'm not the only one who suffered... Dhruv mujhe har chiz batata tha tumhare bare mein...we both have suffered for each other. Carved for each other.... Now please forget about all this and stop crying. Aur mujhe kapade pehnao ab.. thand lag rahi hai tumhare bache ko." She said and I chuckled. I wiped my tears and kissed her on her lips. She kissed me back with the same passion. I pulled back and said. "I love you a lot" "I love you more." She said.

I got up and went near her cupboard to get her clothes I was taking out her clothes when I heard a loud voice. "AHHHHH ANSHHH!!!" She yelled
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𝐓𝐎 𝐁𝐄 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐔𝐄𝐃...
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