Life has never been simple
It has been a fight
There were never good old days
Memories assault
I can't handle the hits
I look at knifes
What a relief they bring
I throw them across the room
I won't go back
It is so tempting
seeing them stuck in a wall
They easily cut flesh
Can't go back
If I go back
it's over
I'm weary of the fight
It's not really worth it
All I get is
Nothing
Nothing
Nothing
I guess nothing
Is what I deserve
******
I saw you today
It made me cry
It made me sick
You always breakdown
Tears fall upon the ground
I walk past
I can't speak
If I do
I'll remember when
When you made me laugh
The first baby you had
How I adored her
Now she is grown
You try grabbing my hand
I pull away
I'm sorry
I can't handle the pain
Just forget me
I'll try forgetting you
Move on
I'm nothing
That's what
I am
I'm sorry
Please let it go
Don't cry
it hurts
It hurts too much
I'm sorry
