Kissed by Fire (Fire Series #1)

Chapter 90: Other Way Around

My eyes are blurry because of my tears so I decided to park the car on the side kaysa naman maaksidente ako. It feels really bad right now pero ayokong mapahamak ako because it will mean the life of my twins too. This isn't just about me anymore. Kailangan ko ng maging responsible sa mga galaw ko.

I shut my eyes and remember Blaise and I's conversation last time. Hindi ko akalain na ganun kababa pala ang tingin niya sa'kin. Did he really think na lalapitan ko siya kung alam kong hindi sa kanya to? Fuck him. Hindi ko naman ipipilit ang mga anak ko sa kanya. Huwag lang siyang makalapit lapit balang araw when he decided na gusto niya na palang magpaka ama. I won't let that happen.

I caress my tummy. You kids take care there, okay? Mommy loves you. I'm so sorry kung makagigisnan niyo na hindi kumpleto ang pamilya natin but I am going to make sure that you will grow up na sagana pa rin sa pagmamahal. You will have me always. I will be your mom and dad.

Hindi ko namalayan na tumutulo na pala ang mga luha ko. I angrily wiped it away. There's no time for me to waste my tears lalo na sa taong wala naman kwenta. From here on, I need to think of something.

Kinuha ko ang phone ko and I dialed Captain's number. In three rings he picked up.

"Hey" salubong niya sa'kin

"Are you busy right now?" sinikap ko na hindi manginig ang boses ko.

"Hindi naman. Bakit?"

"Just wanna hear your voice"

"May problema ka di ba?"

Hindi ko mapigilan mapangiti. "Kabisado mo na talaga ako noh?"

"I'll go to your place. See you"

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The thing I like the most about Captain is he's always a shoulder to cry on. Kagaya na lang ngayon. Hindi siya nagsasalita habang umiiyak ako kung di, hinahayaan niya lang ako na sumadal sa balikat niya.

Nang mapagod na ako ay pinunasan ko na ang mukha ko. He handed me a glass of water na hindi ako nagdadalawang isip na tinanggap.

"So.. bakit ka umiiyak? Is this about Blaise?" he asked

Mariin ko siyang tiningnan then slowly nodded my head.

"What about him?"

"I'm pregnant with twins at siya ang tatay. I went to him but he asked if I am sure na siya ang tatay" muling bumuhos ang mga luha ko.

He sighed then pulled me to him to caress my stomach "Bakit naman yun ang iisipin niya? Gago ba yun?"

I shrugged. "Siguro kasi hanggang ngayon naniniwala pa rin siya na mababang klase ng babae ako. He told me that you could also be the father, you know"

He just shook his head at natawa. He then looked at me seriously which is a sign na mayroon siyang gustong tanungin sa'kin.

"What's your plan now?"

"I don't know.. I was kind of expecting that Blaise will be with me but since it didn't happen, I have to think of something else. Kailangan ko muna isipin kung paano ko to sasabihin kayla daddy. Alam kong masasaktan siya ng husto tapos ayaw pa akong panindigan nang nakabuntis sa'kin"

I can already imagine what it will be like once I tell dad everything. Baka kapag sinabi ko nga sa kanya na si Blaise ang ama ng mga dinadala ko at ayaw akong panindigan, he might kill him.