After baby

Chapter 32-Tessa

Hardin is staring at me waiting for me to answer I don't know why I'm struggling to get the words out I have drank way to much for him to be asking such a serious question now the words just don't seem to be forming right now why did he have to ask now "I think I'm going to the sick"I say and run to the bathroom emptying my stomach into the toilet "Tessa are you ok"Hardin comes rushing in

"I'm fine"I stand up and walk past him into the bedroom "Did you think about what I asked outside"He asks his voice small

"I don't know what to think"I say honestly "what do you you mean"

"I don't really think I want marriage"

"Are you joking"he scoffs "all you ever wanted was marriage"

"When I was a naive girl who thoughts that's what I needed things change I grew up"

"But wouldn't you want to be Scott have the same last names as your children"

"Why do things have to change why can't they stay how it is"

"Because I want to make you my wife"

"I'm basically am like your wife just without the paper"

"But I want it on paper"

"Why"

"What do you mean why"he says

"Because not everything needs to be on paper we are husband and wife in every other way"I say and he looks annoyed "then what's the big deal"he spits

"I...I don't know what to stay to you Hardin"

"Your just selfish"he shouts

"I'm not selfish"I shout back "you are for years you used to talk about marriage broke up because I didn't want to get married and now you say no when I ask you do you not love me anymore"

"Of course I still love you there's more to life then our signatures on a price of paper"

"I can't think clearly I can't even look at you right now"he walks out of the room "wait where are you going" I run after him and he turns around "I just need to be alone for the night"he opens the front door "but it's Christmas" I say my voice breaking "Tessa I love you I do but I just need a break"he kisses my forehead and leaves shutting the door behind him

"Mommy what was that shouting"I hear behind me and I turn around wiping my eyes "nothing to worry about baby"I say taking her hand "baby do you want to sleep in mommy's bed"I ask and she nods we climb into bed and she wraps her arms around me but I can't stop thinking of Hardin and were has he gone maybe I'm just to intoxicated to give him a straight answer now god I can't think clearly all these thoughts are racing through my mind this is going to be a long night