After baby

Chapter 77 -Tessa

It's been about a week since we buried Trish and where back in New York and I'm worried about Hardin he has just been acting different skipping meals not really moving from the bedroom I know he just lost his mom but I'm worried

"Mom where's dad"Auden asks me as I collect him from his band practice "he isn't feeling that good"I tell him "why don't we get him ice cream that always makes me feel better"he smiles oh god is innocents is so cute "that's a good idea"I tell him driving to the nearest ice cream store "Auden get a cup for Em she will be annoyed if we don't get her one"I tell him

Auden is honestly the sweetest kid he is so caring and can tell when your upset or not feeling good plus he is a mommas boy he has Hardin's look the mischievous smile that melts my heart and the pouty lips I can't say no to and the brown hair

We get back inside the apartment and Auden runs over to Emery with her ice cream "aww thank you"she smiles taking the ice cream from him "why don't you give dad his"I say to him and he nods going down to our room "Hardin"I lightly knock at the door and he is sitting on the bed steering at the ceiling "dad"Auden calls him and he turns sitting up "hey buddy"he puts his arms out "I got you icecream"he smiles up at him "and you got all my favourite toppings"Hardin smiles to him I sit down beside him on the bed and lay my head on his shoulder as Auden eats his ice cream

"hey watch you don't spill it"I scold that both of them and they laugh it's a nice sound coming from Hardin I haven't heard in in a while "what like this"he smudges some on my nose "what was that for"I try not to laugh "I'm going out to Emery"Auden says leaving the room

"I like that"

"Like what"Hardin asks me "you smiling laughing being present in the moment"

"It's hard"

"I know it's hard and that why I'm hear you can talk to me you know that you don't have to hold it all inside"I say to him rubbing his cheek "why don't we go out"I suggest

"Out where like with the kids"

"No just us 2 have a date night it could be fun"

"Will be be having fun afterwards" he winks "maybe"

"Than I'll guess I'll go I can't refuse that"he leans in to kisses me he slowly starts moving his hands up my thigh and I have to push him "wait till later"I pant and he grins "oh I will I'm going to shower"he stands up leaving the room

I walk back out to the kids who are just watching a movie I take a seat beside them "so me and dad are going to go out tonight"

"Where"Emery asks "just sometimes to ourselves"

"Oh ok who's going to watch us"

"I didn't think of that maybe you can go to Landons for the night"

"Ugh mom do I have to can't I just stay here"she whines "ye mom I don't want to go either it's Friday I'm tired after school I kinda want to stay here"Auden says to "well Emery I guess you old enough you want to mind Auden"

"I'm 16 I'm mature don't worry mom" she reassures me I leave them alone and go back down to Hardin who is of course just standing in a towel he turns around and his eyes are all puffy "where you crying"

"What no"he turns back around "Your aloud to don't be embarrassed"I wrap my arms around his back and I feel him relax "let's get ready and enjoy ourselves"he says turning to face me "I don't want to be sad moppy Hardin"

"I don't want you to be either but remember you can express your emotions"

"I would much rather fuck you"

"Ha..Hardin"

"You want to"he breathes down my neck "the kids are...out there"

"The door locks"........

"That was the best"I roll of Hardin trying to catch my breathe "it was I needed that"he wraps his arms under me pulling me back on top "I don't think I can go again"I say out of breathe

"I just want to look at you"he says "your beautiful"he compliments me "why are you been so nice"I tease him "I'm in a good mood now"

"I can tell"

"Mom"A voice sounds through the door "just a second Emery"I call "what are yous doing why is the door....wait never mind"I hear the disgust in her voice as he footsteps go down the hall me and Hardin just look to each other and laugh "do you still want to go out"I ask him "nope I want to stay in let's just put the kids to bed"

"Babe it's only 8"I push at his chest

"Did you just call me babe"he smiles "what no I didn't...did I?"

"You did don't be embarrassed I like it"