Antara Darah dan Hati: Dream Reality English Translation

Chapter 26 Part 4 "Don't Be Sad, Allah Is With Us"

POV Sofia

Today is the day of my fake Ijab Qabul procession event being held. The actors that I, sinjo Karim and our family have hired have been in their respective positions to replace us. What about the invited guests? The invited guests who attended my fake Ijab Qabul procession event consisted of several hired actors, several members of the Jalan Darah motorcycle gang as well as some several personal guards that were assigned to guard and look after my parents and myself and one of those who were present at my fake Ijab Qabul procession event was sister Tantri.

Anxiety and worries continued to haunt me as long as sinjo Karim and I hid in this safe house located in the middle of the forest. I'm worried for the safety of sinjo Karim's parents, for the safety of brother Muhamed's parents, and for the safety of brother Muhamed himself. Although they weren't among the people that our enemies wanted to attack and exterminate, our enemies could attack them or plan something to harm them to lure us out of our hiding.

Brother Muhamed, his parents and sinjo Karim's parents, they are not here with us. They are hiding in separate places from us. Actually, sinjo Karim and I have tried to persuade brother Muhamed, his parents and sinjo Karim's parents to hide with us but they refused our invitation to hide in the same place with us.

The reason they refuse to hide in the same place with us is, if we hide in the same place, our enemies who were threatened us and coming to claim our lives could easily find the place where we all hide. If we split up and hide in separate places we're hoping that we can outwit our enemy and confuse our enemies, making it difficult for them to find us and kill us all.

To further increase our security while we were in hiding, with the help of my parents and sister Tantri, we were all being given fake identity documents and given new gadgets that are filled with new phone numbers that we had to use temporarily so that our presence in the real and virtual world it is more difficult to be tracked by the enemy.

I really hope that our enemies who are coming to claim our lives eats the trap that we have worked so hard to set because, I want to know who are the real people behind my assassination plot and why they couldn't leave me and sinjo Karim and those closest to me alone so we could live our peaceful and normal lives.

Normal life huh? Oh, yes. I don't think I've ever had a normal life because, unlike sinjo Karim, brother Muhamed, their family and their friends, I am the one and perhaps the only Princess of the Kingdom of the Netherlands who chose to become a Muslim. Heh, if I think about it, all the things that I did to protect myself and my family and friends felt like a waste. Even if I find out who are our enemies that constantly targeting us and what are their motives behind all the evil deeds that they have done to us, there will still be other enemies that will continue to appear and make various evil plans to harm, hurt, and kill us.

Damn, I want to be able to live happily ever after with sinjo Karim, I want to spend my days peacefully with him until we are separated by death. I want to be able to see our children's days filled with joy and happiness, not filled with fear and anxiety. I'm really fed up with all of this.

"Mijn lieve? Mijn lieve? Mijn lieve? Mijn lieve Prinses? (My dear? my dear? my dear? My dear princess?)."

Huh? Sinjo Karim? His voice woke me from my reverie and made me realize that the vegetables and meat that I'm boiling and will serve as soup for our dinner today are cooked and ready to be seasoned. Sinjo Karim wrapped his arms around my waist, hugged me tightly from behind and asked his question in a soft tone close to my ear.

"What's wrong Princess? I saw you shedding tears, it made me worried. If you feel anxious, I beg you to tell me about the things that make you feel anxious. We are already a pair of husband and wife, so I hope you are willing to share all the joys and sorrows that you have together with your husband."

He kissed the top of my head after saying that while still hugging me. I tried to calm myself until the tears gradually stopped falling from the corners of my eyes. I took a deep breath then exhaled and started to tell him the things that make me anxious.

"I-I wish we could li-live in peace and not continue t-to live in hiding. I-I don't want our days with our ch-children to be f-filled with anxiety and f-fear bec-beause of the actions of our en-enemies who continue to threat-ten the safety of our lives and continue t-to harm us. I want t-to live a n-n-normal life like all the or-ordinary people out th-there."

I was still trying to hold back my sobs but, in the end my sobs broke when I poured all the various worries that I had on him.

"I, I, I'm sorry sinjo Karim. Because of me y-you can't live a n-normal life anymore. Because of m-me, your family has t-to live in fear and anxiety too. It's all because of m-me."

He slowly turned me around and cradled my face in his chest. He gently stroked my head and gave his answer.

"Mijn lieve (my dear), I am grateful to know you, I am grateful to Allah because He is willing to unite me with you, I am grateful to Allah that you were given the courage to defend me until I was released from prison and you eventually became a Muslim. I never regret anything that has happened to me because, if it hadn't happened, you would never be here with me.

Yes, I understand you are angry with all our enemies who make our lives filled with fear and anxiety like this. I've also experienced that when I was locked up in prison but, believe me Allah is with us and in the end, there will be a time when the storm that hit our lives subsides, the proof? If the storm didn't subside, I wouldn't be here with you, would I?"

I moved my head back and looking up to his smiling face that are filled with peace and tranquility then, he continued his sentence.

"I'm sure one day the storm we're currently facing will subside and be replaced by days filled with bright rays of warm sunshine."

Hearing him say that made a small smile appeared on my lips. I opened my lips and thanked him for having managed to calm me from all the anxiety that I felt

"Thank you,"

"You're welcome." he said, replying to me.

"Sinjo Karim, you are really good at putting words together, aren't you?" I told him, praising his ability to speak and string words together.

"Alhamdulillah. Maybe I can try to be your personal poet? I can make some romantic poetry only for you." he said thanking Allah then tries to tease me.

"Hihi." I laughed a little at that.

"What? Is something wrong, my sweet Princess?" he asked me.

"No." I told him with a smile because I still felt a little ticklish at all the poetic lines he said to me.

"Thank you, I can continue cooking now." I said to him, he removed his arms from me and then he knelt in front of me as if he gave me a gesture of honor that a royal usually get from his or her knight.

"Your welcome, Your Majesty. If you're sad just call me again. Your Zwarte Ridder is always ready to fulfill your call to cheer you up and protect you 24 hours per-day."

"Hihihi, yes my Zwarte Ridder, you can go now." I said to him while trying to hold my laugh, still feeling the ticklish sensation flowed through my chest because of the words that he uttered to me and the gestures that he showed to me.

"Ja, Mijn Hoogheid (Yes, My Liege)." he answered my sentences and then slowly get up from his kneeling position, then he turned his body and walked away from me.

Sinjo karim, thank you for never having regret in loving me and wanting to be with me even though I am not a pure and perfect lady and often be the cause for many misfortunes and miseries that befalls upon the people around her. I hope that even though our future lives will be filled with perils, you will remain as you are now so that I can still show my smile when facing various obstacles and threats that our enemies pose to us.