Antara Darah dan Hati: Dream Reality English Translation

Chapter 7 Part 4 "Die Verbundenheit"

POV Ludwig

Lodewijk, I haven't seen him in two years. Seeing Lodewijk is like seeing myself in the mirror, is just that our hairstyles and behaviours are different. He also still reply to me in Dutch everytime I spoke to him in German because he always knew that I feel like a buffoon and a little bit annoyed everytime I heard him spoke Dutch because it feels like I was seeing myself trying to speak while being drunk.

Ah, Lodewijk. That idiot, why is he looking for death? Is he tired of life? Doesn't he know that his two dead friends are a warning so that no one else is trying to stop the government from getting rid of anti right-wing people like them? Ah, yes, I forgot, he is already a part of those sand niggers.

Sometimes I am confused, why Lodewijk can accept a religion that has a high percentage of perpetrators for terrorism crimes that are committed by its adherents. Was he brainwashed? Is he enticed by 72 heavenly virgin female angels? Does he want to have 4 wives? Ah I don't know, I don't want to think about it but I'm just confused. Why does he, a good human like that have to follow a path that is unreasonable and only a mere imagination?

Lodewijk, I hate him because of the path that he choose to follow. I'm afraid the path that he took is wrong. I am afraid that he will become an extremist and joined terrorist groups and took part in their war against people whom they think deserve to be killed if they don't follow the path which they think is right.

Verdamt (damn), if only Lodewijk grew up with me it would not be like this but this was all my father's fault for preferring his job in Germany and taken me with him, leaving mother with Lodewijk in this damned country which affects his mindset causing him to be too tolerant for those sand niggers until he followed their path.

I remember the first time when he became a sand nigger. He is not far too different from what he already is. Before he went to work in the Netherlands for the last one year, he often gave me food every Friday when he finished his noon prayer. Hanging it on the bars of the gate of my house. Sometimes the food that he gave to me was the typical inlander food which he cooked by himself. I don't hate it, honestly the food is so lecker (very tasty) than German foods that tastes boring.

I haven't seen him in a year, but I see that even though he has become a sand nigger, he still laughs easily like Ein Wahnsinniger (a crazy person), friendly, sociable and easygoing. Those behaviours are still remains as his trademark.

Sometimes I envy him who can relax like that. How can a person relax without planning anything for his future to avoid the worst possibility that will befalls upon his destiny? I don't know but that's the Lodewijk I know. That relaxed, idiotic, easily smiling, bicycle maniac who never stops making my mouth show a small knot of smile if I remember his behaviours and now I have to face him again and maybe, this will be our last battle in the courtroom.

I want to help him if I can, I want to save him from the tragic death that has befallen upon his two friends but what can I do if things are like this? I hope that de volks geluiddemper (silencer of the people) will be a little soft on him but it also seems impossible. How could I ask those serial killers who've lost their mind to use their conscience and compassion for the people that have become their targets?

My superriors from the party had warned me about Ilhan whose friend was Lodewijk. He must have contacted him to face me. They reminded me because they knew I have a soft side for Lodewijk. I hate doing this but I think I have to learn to hate Lodewijk even more. Es tut mir leid bruder (I'm sorry brother). Maybe, this is the last time I will eat your gift, schade (really unfortunate).

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German/Dutch dictionary

Die verbundenheit = sibling ties

Sand nigger (German)/zand nikker (Dutch) = desert negroes (Arabs, middle-easterners or Muslim as a whole)