ZAHRA--
The next day, I stayed at home because Bilal thought that it'd be better if I took a few days off.
I was about to start praying when Bilal stopped me, "wait, before u start... do you.... think you can....remind me how to pray? " he shyly asked mumbling his words, but I was still able to understand.
I giggle a little and nod my head 'yes'
"Well ..... first you have to do your wudu" I say and he raises his hands, "already done" he says with enthusiasm
"okay but I can't be the imam because women can't be one for men but I can tell you the steps" I say and he shrugs, "I don't really mind, as long as I'm learning" he states
*****
BILAL--
I just finished praying for the first time in years.
I feel like all the pain inside me is... just... gone.
This is the best feeling ever.
It feels comforting, and like the world went quiet.
Quiet in a good way...
All my worries are gone...
And it feels amazing
I love it
"So... " Zahra says. "How do you feel? How do you feel after not praying for a while?" she asks.
I go to the bed and sit next to her. I lay my head on her lap and she smiles looking down at me revealing her dimples.
Oh how I love those gorgeous dimples...
Gorgeous like her...
"Amazing" I tell her. "I feel.... Happy? Relaxed? I don't know why I stopped caring about my deen.
The worst mistake I've ever done is being careless about it. Thank you for making me aware of that" I say and I notice her smile is still plastered on her face.
I can't take my eyes off her beautiful face...
"It is my absolute honour.
If you need any help with knowing more about Islam, I'm right here" she says and I nod.
Zahra's phone started ringing and it's Anas who's calling. I sit up straight wondering why he's calling right now.
She answers the phone and speaks, "Asalamu Alaykum Anas."..... " ya Allah! Is she okay? "...... " umm y-yeah I'll b-be there in a sec" she looks shocked and puts her phone down.
"Z what's wrong? " I ask but she doesn't reply, all she does is freeze in her spot....
Not a single movement...
"Z what's wrong? " I repeat.
I stand up becoming more worried
She takes a deep breath and I notice tears welling up in her eyes, "Amira got in a carsh... She might not make it. " her voice is raspy. She's trying so hard not to cry.
I hug her, knowing what it feels like to have a sister so important to you to be on the verge of dying.
She hugs me back and says, "I need to go see her. I need to help the other doctors with her. I need to try and help her stay alive"
Zahra breaks
She's now crying
And I know exactly how she's feeling way too well.
This feeling is way too familiar to me
*****
ZAHRA--
I come out of the operation room taking a deep breath.
Bilal is standing outside the room waiting for me
"so..? " he says waiting for a reply
"she gonna make it ..... in sha Allah " I say in nothing but relief
"in sha Allah" he repeats after me.
*****
She wakes up a few hours later, Anas, Bilal and I are there in room with her.
"How are you feeling? " I ask as she groans from the pain. "Okay.... I'll take that as a 'I'm not so well' response" I say scratching the back of my head and widening my eyes. "You just need to rest, it happens way more often than you think to people who were involved in car accidents and in sha Allah you'll feel better tomorrow when you wake up" I advise her and she does as I say.
It was getting late, my eyelids are starting to become really heavy, but the thing is that I don't want to leave Amira alone even though Bilal and Anas are telling me to go home and sleep.
"You know what, I'll stay with her here and you go with Bilal to your house, this way she's not left alone okay? " Anas suggests and Bilal agrees nodding their heads.
It took them ages to convince me but I finally gave in.
*****
I was so exhausted. I changed into my pyjamas and directly layed down the bed ready to sleep, yet for some reason I wasn't able to sleep. I kept on thinking about Amira. I shuffle on the bed for what felt like an hour until Bilal spoke. "Okay, that's it. What's bothering you" I can feel him turn around but my back is facing his face. "Hey, look at me, Z... what's wrong?" I do a whole 180° turn to face him, "I keep thinking about Amira... It scares me how she could've died today, you know? "
He notices me trembling, he puts his arm around my waist and pulls me closer to him. I don't notice that our faces are so close to each other until I can feel his hot breath as it tickles my neck.
"It's going to be okay, darling" he reassures me.
Oh my rabi his voice, it feels like butterflies are fluttering in my stomach everytime I hear it.
He presses his soft lips against my forehead and rubs my back and repats what he said, "it's going to be okay"
Why am I falling so hard for this man that I once hated with all my heart.
A man I never thought I would even smile at.
A man that I didn't want to marry
But here I am...
Falling in love with him.
I don't know why I am.... but if Allah has written it for the both of us, then Allah's doing it for a purpose.
"50,000 years before the sky was introduced to the sea, Allah wrote your name next to me"
*****
Asalamu Alaykum wa rahmatullahi wa barakato 🤍
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Allah Hafiz 🫀
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Heartless Love
Romance"Heartless Love " tells the story of Zahra Najjar, a Lebanese doctor from a mafia family, who is forced to marry Bilal Saleh, a longtime rival from a rival mafia family. Despite their hatred for each other, their marriage turns out to be the cataly...
