The forgotten one

14

When we pull up to the doctors office I get really excited. I have always loved seeing my baby. I know it's stupid but when things got really bad that's the only thing I looked forward to.

I wait impatiently for Ace to get out of the car and open my door. When he finally does I jump out of the car and grab his hand, pulling me with him.

He makes sure to close the car door and lock it before letting himself fall into step beside me. I skip lightly because I don't want to make my baby feel like my baby is in a trampoline park.

We get inside and check into the office before waiting in the lobby. When we finally get called I jump up and grab Ace's hand.

We follow a nurse into a room and she tells me to lay down on the table. I do and she tells me that the doctors will be in soon because I'm new patients.

I grab Aces hand and we talk till the doctor comes in. She's a woman and she introduces herself as doctor smith.

She tells me to pull up my shirt. I do and she squirts some cold jelly onto my belly. Ace's hold on my hand gets tighter and I can tell that he's nervous.

I look over at him and he looks fine but his eyes give it away. I give him a smile and he kisses my head. He scoots up closer to me and puts his hand on my head, using his thumb to rub my head softly.

The doctor puts the wand thingy on my belly and starts moving it around. Everyone is looking at the screen waiting for the baby to show up.

When she finally puts it in the right spot, a small baby shows up on the screen. Ace's breath stops for a moment before a smile shoot's up on his face.

I'm also smiling at the screen. My little baby.

The doctor tells us that the baby is perfectly health and looks to be the right size. Then she starts talking. "I have two questions. Would you like to hear the heartbeat and do you want to know the gender?"

I look up at Ace and he just looks at me. We haven't talked a lot about the baby but I would like him to be apart of there life. He nods and I smile.

I look over at the doctor and say yes to both questions. She hits a button and you can immediately hear the babies heartbeat. It's fast and it seems to concern Ace because he starts asking a tone of questions.

The doctor assures him multiple times that it's perfectly normal but he still seems a little on edge. I turn my head and kiss him on the cheek, calming him down a little.

"Ok ready to know the gender?" The doctor asks with a smile. Me and Ace nod at the same time, not liking the suspense.

"You two are having a very beautiful baby boy." She says with a smile.

I grin widely and look at Ace who looks super happy. He places kisses all over my face making me giggle.

When he's done I kiss his cheek and grab a napkin from the doctor so I can get the jell off of my stomach.

Ace helps me sit up and we continue talking to the doctor. She said I could eat more, the baby is at a good size but it's dangerous for me to be so little when trying to give birth.

Ace was listening to every word she said very carefully. He reassured her that I would be eating more and would be more careful about the babies.

I was sad. I know I should be eating more and I've been trying but it's hard when one of your punishments was getting your food taken away and when it wasn't you only ate the lunch school provided.

I really have been trying and have gotten to eating 2 meals a day with some snacks too. I feel like I failed my baby boy already.

I let Ace lead me out of the doctors office and into the car. I should be feeling happy that I'm having a boy but right now I only feel like a failure and I haven't even had him yet.

When Ace gets into the drivers seat he looks over at me. His eyes soften and he grabs my face in his hands.

"Baby what's wrong?" He asks softly.

"I failed already. I'm not eating enough. I have been trying to eat more but it's hard. He isn't even born yet and I can't even take care of him properly." I say as tears start streaming down my face.

"You haven't failed. You have done the best you can with what has been given to you. You have help now tho. I will help you with everything I can. You don't have to do it alone anymore." He says looking into my eyes.

I nod and smile softly. He has done so much for me in the little time we have had together. He is giving himself the responsibility of a child without even thinking much about it.

It's also what scares me. He hasn't really given it much thought, and hopefully when he does he doesn't leave. Anyone else would. I mean who wants to take care of someone else's baby at 17 when you could go live your life?

Ace drives me to a Taco Bell drive through and I get 3 soft taco supremes, and some churros. While eating I finally have time to digest what happened at the doctor's office.

I'm having a baby boy.