The New Girl

{61.1} Nerves, dancing buddies, and photobooth fails

I take a deep breath as Chelle tries to calm me down.  Now that Harry's texted me he's ready, my stomach is twisting.  At last...it's actually the winter formal.  When I walk out of the room this night will be filled with dresses, dancing, and boys.  And also...yeah...probably tears.  

"Gracie, calm down, it will be okay.  You look amazing!" Chelle tries to keep eye contact with me.  

My eyes close lightly.  I can't cry, it will ruin my makeup Chelle worked hard on.  Slowly, I breath in and out.  My nerves have got the best of me.  This is the part of me that I will always have.  In big situations I freak out at the last moment.  I still don't feel like I look good enough for Harry.  All my friends are so beautiful, I'll never compare.  

I'm being so insecure I need to stop.  Chelle rubs my back and keeps saying nice things.  Why am I being a baby?  After a couple more minutes I start to calm down.  I don't feel that uncomfortable 'I am going to burst into tears' feeling anymore.  In the mirror, I adjust myself and put on a smile.  I always look better smiling.  It seems cheesy but true.  

"I'm ready." I huff.  

"Lovely." Chelle smiles while texting on her phone, "Kathryn's waiting." 

This is deja vu as we step into Kathryns sister, Abby's, car.  It's like the Halloween party.  In the car, everyone keeps talking to me and it makes me relax.  Deep down I still feel nervous about my certain date.  I don't usually dress up around him.  This will be strangely...different.  All my friends look beautiful though!  The dresses each have their unique look.  I clutch tightly to my little box with Harry's boutonniere in it.

My phone buzzes causing my heart to beat a little faster, "Save a dance 4 me ! xx -N"

It beats faster at the fact we have never solved our problems.  We could have been having fun this whole time.  But now it's too late.  His text gets pushed aside by Holland screaming lyrics and Kathryn talking about Will.  Oh, I could talk about Harry alright.  They just don't know.  

Soon I can see a large, stoney building saying 'The Oasis'.  Shit, were here.  Shakily, I follow everyone out of the car.  I'm so oblivious to everything.  I'm not even noticing Chelle talking to me.  I've been getting ready all day and just had a panic attack so I need to... go crazy or something.  All our heels click as we walk to the building.  Other groups of people from our school are walking in.  Everyone looks really nice and dressed up.  

"You look lovely by the way." Kirsten nudges my arm. 

"Oh, thank you." I grin, "You too." 

"I'm going to be with Liam so that means..." 

"Niall." I blurt. 

"Yeah.  If he asks about you, what should I say?  Just in case, you know." Kirsten asks.  

"Just tell him to find me.  I'm not leaving this school without talking to him." I say seriously.