He's Mine | Jikook

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The End.

Oh God, I guess this is it. After two years, I finally managed to finish this book. Honestly, what a ride. Many new readers joined us, but I wonder if the ones from the very beginning are still around? Nevertheless, I'm glad so many chose to read 'He's Mine'.

This was my first book, so I didn't really expect it to succeed. Then, I started noticing how many people voted and commented on this story! It was so overwhelming and I was afraid to mess it up. After all, I know this book deals with very heavy topics and has extremely.. let's say conflicting characters.

I warned you guys, hehe. Honestly, I love reading angsty stuff, so I always knew I wouldn't be a good fluff writer. It's cute and fun at times, but I need the drama and tragedy. It makes those protagonists so much more human and emotionally available.

I know some people were afraid of the ending. I was honestly surprised to see that some wanted a happy ending. I must admit that some, who expected Jikook to live in a fairytale world, unfortunately didn't seem to understand the purpose and meaning of this book. Being open-minded isn't just ignoring your morals or usual story taste- it's also about understanding a ship and how different one can define it. Jikook does not equal to a happy ending. It can still be a ship with cruel characters and tragic storylines!

If you expect extremely happy romance stuff with picture-perfect endings, you might want to reconsider reading heavy angst. We have no right to blame authors for their writing style and storytelling when we read them. Once you decide to click on a book and read it, you're confirming to be broad-minded. You need to be prepared for everything! Trust me, I learned it the hard way. Oh, the many books that destroyed me emotionally..

Having people beg for perfect endings was, I admit, frustrating sometimes. I thought 'Are we all reading the same book?' It made me feel like people dismissed my work and the plot. Nothing mattered, as long as their favorite ship was perfectly fine and doing great. Really, why bother reading then? Doesn't that take away the excitement and enjoyment of discovering new storylines? But I already made a long post about that on my message board, and I think I explained myself and my feelings much better there. I don't really want to discuss this anymore, since we've reached the end now. And I know they didn't mean to offend me! But I'd like to think that as a writer, I'm close enough to my readers and can therefore openly talk about my feelings!

Please don't take this as an attack! I just wanted to share my opinion for the last time. If you decide to read my upcoming stories, I hope you'll keep this in mind :)

THANK YOU SO MUCH for being so sweet, loving and patient with me! Really, I was lucky enough to have an amazing audience that analyzed basically everything and never missed to leave entertaining or sweet comments. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

I've learned so many things! My writing style changed too, of course. I'm much better prepared for writing now. And I also learned how important time management can be.. I'm really sorry for making you wait so long. I'll do my best to do better in my next book!

Oh yes, my next book. It's going to be different. I'm so excited to share it with you. I'll publish the first chapters in a few days. God, I can't believe I'm about to start writing it! Guys, the amount of time it took to plan it.. I'm so glad I can finally share it with you! I have so many drafts and notes.

At the end, there's a little sneak peek. I still have to work on the cover though, since my old cover creator deleted her account and is no longer active :/ I need to find a new one!

I'd ALSO like to thank the Song: Plaza- All Mine. I listened to it twice and published the first chapter the exact same day. If I never stumbled across his music, 'He's Mine' wouldn't exist. So please, check out his other works. And All Mine of course, if you haven't already.

I'll see you in a few days, in my next book. I hope I'll find some 'He's Mine' readers there!

I love you so much. Please, stay safe! Really, all of you are amazing. I don't know what I did to deserve this.

XxxX

'TDTID'  (can you guess what it stands for? :D)

Jimin,

if you find this letter, I'll already be long gone. Writing this to you seems funny, maybe even ridiculous, however it's the least I could do before leaving.

I don't expect you to understand my decision, but I really hope that one day, you'll be able to forgive me. Don't hate me, my dear son. Even if it's selfish to ask for sympathy- I don't want to die knowing that my youngest son loathed me.

Because Jimin, I love you.

I never stopped loving you.

Now you're just a child, but I know that in the future, you'll grow up to be a beautiful, young man who can differentiate between what's good and bad. Please, don't let anybody ever take that away from you. Ever.

Stay true to yourself, Jimin.

And be strong.

Surviving in this cruel and unfair world is hard. Just look at me. Even I wasn't able to do it.

But you will.

I believe in you.

I have trust in you.

And I care for you. I really do.

My smart, and innocent boy.. I always thought of you as a fighter. Remember how you used to defend me when your father was upset about the things I chose to do? Not even your brother dared to speak up to him- but you did. My little angel, you've never been as afraid as he expected you to be. I still admire you for that. Who would have thought that the youngest and quietest child would also be the bravest one?

We've always been there for each other. I wish I could continue protecting you..

..but that's it. My strength only reaches this far. It has to end this way, Jimin.

I'm sorry. I love you,

Your mother.