Today, I engaged in a new and reckless activity that I am unsure how to even begin describing. I have recently made two acquaintances who have a tendency to make every bad idea sound like a good one. They would truly jump with me off a building if I ask them to. This is so scary to me...
While I enjoy their company, I feel uneasy.
Although I have found two individuals to hold my hands, I am hesitant to trust them with my heart.
While I have encountered two sets of lips to shower me with kisses, they seem so distant.
Though I have two pairs of arms to embrace me, their touch feels cold.
Furthermore, I have two sets of ears to hear me, but it seems that neither truly listens to me.
I have come to realize that my inability to be completely open with my friends may be preventing me from forming a deeper connection with them. I am uncertain whether my reluctance to open up is due to my lack of desire to connect with them on a more intimate level or simply my discomfort with being alone.
Perhaps I am afraid to let my guard down because I fear that they will not accept me for who I truly am, with all my imperfections and vulnerabilities...
Should I let them in?...
I'm scared of letting people in
