TW: SA
I feel like I'm drowning in my own shame,
The memory of it all is driving me insane.
I stayed like a stone when it happened again,
Unable to move, unable to scream out in pain.
I pretended as if nothing happened at all,
But inside I felt like I was hitting a wall.
I talked like nothing broke me, but I lied,
Every word I spoke felt like a stab in my side.
I acted like your touch was nothing at all,
But the truth is, it made me feel so small.
No matter how hard I wash my skin,
Your hands still linger, marking me with your sin.
I'm angry with myself for not standing tall,
For not speaking up and saying what happened
I'm disgusted with myself for letting it slide...
I thought that it would never happen to me again...
