Teenage Love Affair♥

♥Chapter: 19♥

After 2 hours of hittin the mall for a while, I finally arrived to Jayda's place with Jayda herself. I was glad to have my best girlfriend back with me, but I still didn't feel complete. And the only way I can feel better is if I get Xavier back in my life... but I know that wouldn't be easy.
Without him, I felt lost. I just hope Jay knows how to help me fix this shit that I severely messed up.
"Girl, you can put yo bags on the couch." Jayda said opening the door for us.
I barely had the courage to keep myself happy during our lil shoppin trip. Don't get me wrong, I loved shopping and all that, but it was hard to contain myself to a happy mood because of all the shit I'm goin through. I just wanted it to be finished already, but knowing Tyrese, he probably still got some tricks up his sleeves.
After puttin the bags on the couch, I sat down and sighed. Hopefully Jayda can cheer me up.
"Ay girl, lemme just take my sweater off, my place is mad hot."
"Mhmm..." I said depressively.
Jayda soon gave me the: Don't say I didn't tell you so look and came to sit next to me.
"Girl, I know how much your life is trippin now. I'm here. You don't have to worry."
"That's what Xavier said to me... and I screwed it all up Jayda. I screwed it all up. I'm a loser!!!"
"Oh my god! Camille!! Don't say that about yourself! You're NOT a loser."
"Yes I am Jayda!" I said trying to wipe my tears. "I broke up with Xavier when I didn't want to! I love him so much Jayda. I just want him back in my life! I don't want Tyrese! HE HURTS ME!"
"Aww poor girl. And the way you told me how Imani is doing... doesn't sound like your ever getting a break."
"Jayda... I will never get a break, as long as I'm living the nightmare that became a reality. When Tyrese finds out I ain't buy the clothes for his gang, he's goin to yell at me."
"Girl, fuck that nigga! You need to step."
"I can't!! He's controlling everything I did! You were right Jay. I should have broken up with him long ago..."
"Girl, listen don't overstress yourself so hard. You gotta understand that what you did was wrong, but I'ma help you fix it. I promise you that."
"How Jay!? How!? He gon kill you too!!"
"I say we call the FBI and let them deal with him."
"ARE  YOU CRAZY!!? His gang won't even HESITATE to kill us, if we put him in jail. Tyrese got people everywhere! And they know ME!"
Jayda sighed, as I cried. I hate that I had to put people through this mess. That's why I just wanted to deal with this myself. I didn't want to put people's lives in jeopardy, I didn't want to let Tyrese kill Xavier that's why I had to break up with him... but at the same time I wish Tyrese would leave me! What does he want from me!!? He already abused me enough... I'm tired of it.
"Listen girl, what you need is a little snack. You ate yet?" Jayda said getting up from the couch into her kitchen.
I shook my head left and right. I was to damn depressed to speak.
"Well then... Jayda's special tacos is coming right up."
As Jayda started making the food, I couldn't help but just still think of ways to get back at Tyrese. For all the shit he done to me, I still can't believe he wouldn't have a heart, and continue to hurt me periodically. I wish somebody would just send some karma to that boy, so he can feel the hurt. Not just me.
"C'mon Camille. Don't be moping around. Cheer up please."
"It's easy for you to say Jayda... but it's not easy to do."
"Camille, if you only let me call the damn police on his ass everything will be taken-"
"NO!!! YOU CAN'T DO THAT JAY! I TOLD YOU ALREADY!" I yelled. Would she just listen to me for a damn second?
"Sheesh, I'll be quiet. Damn."
Even though, Jayda wasn't the type of girl to listen, she liked to do action, I felt bad for yellin at her. We just got our friendship back and I'm not acting nice or anything.
I took a deep sigh and headed over to the kitchen where she was preparing everything and I sat down at the table.
"I'm sorry."
"Nah it's cool girl. I'll keep my mouth shut, you can say whatever you want cause I ain't tryin to get you mad."
"I ain't mad Jayda. I'm fed up... When Imani got sick, I felt like I was goin to lose her... she's my baby Jayda. It's hard to not have your child around when you're her mother. And... and... I just don't want Imani to grow up not havin any loving parents... I want her to have not just one but two. TWO PARENTS. I can't let her grow up to have the type of life I'm havin Jay... I ain't want her to have parents who hate her, does drugs, and is never around... THAT'S WHY I COULDN'T LEAVE TYRESE BEFORE! If I were to leave him, it would remind me of how my dad treated my mom and how they just don't love each other no more, and out doin who knows the fuck what. And now... now, that I lost Xavier... it still feels like I'm on my own... he took care of Imani. He gave me and her a place to stay when I couldn't stay at my crib anymore. He loved me so much, and he was so nice to me in the beginning that I didn't even realize it until he told me he loves me... I didn't know how to love at first... or more like... I was scared to love at first because... I didn't really know what it meant. I was scared to love him because I thought he would treat me the same way Tyrese treats me. But I was wrong... I was dead wrong. Xavier is The 1 for me Jayda... Tyrese made it so hard to fall in love... he made it so hard to trust someone... but when I had that, I didn't even fully appreciate it enough. I just wanna show Xavier how much I love him... but I'm afraid... sometimes, I don't know how... Just please listen to me Jayda! I want him back... I want him back." I said tearing up.
Jayda soon came to sit down next to me, wiping my eyes and she held my hands. It even looked like she was tearing up too.
"Girl, you never know what you've got until its gone. And it's true. We sometimes take for granted the people that we value so much because, we know they will never leave us. And when they did, you'll realize that you wished you valued every second with them. I understand the hurt you got for Imani, and the broken heart you got for Xavier, but I promise you, if we just find a way to get Tyrese off your ass, Xavier will be back into your heart. But you gotta trust him Camille. You gotta trust Xavier. He told me that he wanted to get rid of Tyrese for you, but you wouldn't let him."
"Because I don't want him to get hurt Jayda! You don't understand!"
"Aye! Didn't I tell you I understand? Yeah I know you don't want him to get hurt Camille, but trust me, Xavier is smart. And number one he's a guy. Okay? And a football player, so he's defensive enough to not only protect you, but to protect himself. And the only way to get your life back in track, is to call him tell him everything, including your deep feelings for him and he won't hate you anymore. Trust me girl, Xavier still loves you. But you just hurt his heart. And it's harder for boys to express how they feel than girls. Trust me. I know."
"I don't know if I can Jayda..."
"Listen, you remember that boy I told you about, Darnell?"
"Yeah... I remember." I said sniffing up. But I didn't even wanna hear it. All she ever did was brag about how much she loves him, how much he loves her and all that. But I didn't wanna act rude. I didn't wanna lose our friendship again.
"We been goin out for almost 2 months now... all he ever did was make me feel happy. And you see all these clothes I be rockin that he bought me? It ain't all about that. Sure its nice, and he loves spending his paper on me but, what's always most important is that he shows me love. He cares for me, defends me, protects me, and is just the guy for me. Ever since my parents told me their leaving for Georgia for 3 months to help look after my grandparents, I thought to myself how am I goin to be able to live without them for that long? My older bro don't even call anymore so I know how it feels to be lonely and not have parents around. Ever since I met Darnell 2 months ago, he's all I have now. I love him and he loves me, and he's always there for me when I need him. So I know how you feel Camille. I know how you truly feel. But never give up on true love. You hear?"
After Jayda said that, I felt like she seriously knew how I felt. As much as I'm jealous about all the things she have, and havin the perfect boyfriend... she knows how I'm feelin. And all I want is someone to understand me, and care about me. And she definitely does.
"Wow, it's like you just read my damn mind..." I said trying to wipe my watery eyes.
"Girl, stop crying. It's just goin to ruin your beauty. You wanna look beautiful don't you?"
"There's no point Jayda... Tyrese thinks I'm a ugly bitch."
"He's an ugly bitch. That fuckin bastard. I think I'ma send Darnell to give him a piece of his mind."
"Jayda... you know damn well you shouldn't do that. You can't risk your own boyfriend to hurt Ty."
"Humph, don't worry Darnell is a police officer's son. I can call his dad right up."
"Jay... just finish the tacos. I'm starving."
"iight, but I'm telling you girl. Take my advice, you just gotta step, call somebody to give Ty a piece of his mind or I will. Plus you need to talk to Xavier. You gotta get your man back."
I thought about what Jayda said, as much as I wanna listen to her, I can't just step from Tyrese. I'm still thinking of a plan, and hopefully I come up with one soon.
Suddenly my cell phone started ringing. I knew they probably were gunna cut it off again. But I seriously hope it wasn't that.
"Who's that?" Jayda asked.
"The caller I.D. says: Sanford Hospital..." Oh my god. IMANI!!! It has to be about my baby girl Imani.
"Isn't Imani at that-"
"SSH!!" I said quickly answering the phone call. My heartbeat accelerated. I just hoped what was to be heard, good news.
"Hello!?"
"Hi, is this Camille Edwards?"
"Yes this is her!"
"Okay. I have some very good news to tell you. I believe your daughter Imani Edwards, is now finally... out of her coma."
Out of nowhere, I dropped my phone on the floor and froze.
She said WHAT!?
SHE SAID WHAT!!!?
Oh my gosh... oh my gosh... Imani!
IMANI!!
IMANI!!!
SHE'S OUT OF HER COMA!!?
I can't believe it... was this some type of blessing for me OR WHAT!?
"OH MY GOSH! CAMILLE! Girl, what happened!?"
I grabbed Jayda and I started shaking her consistently. "IMANI WOKE UP FROM HER COMA!! SHE'S AWAKE!! SHE'S AWAKE!!"
"OH MY GOSH! AAH!!!" Jayda said smiling and cheering along with me.
"GIRL WHAT YOU WAITIN FOR! ANSWER THEM BACK!!"
I quickly picked my phone up, and tried to contain myself. Finally, a miracle has happened in my life. And now I know how it feels to truly have something you always wanted appear.
"Hello!? Hello!?" I said.
"Yes, I know your happy about the good news. But I just want to say that the doctors took many tests, and Imani only has some mild conditions that can easily be taken cared of. She would have to stay in the hospital for a little bit longer just to make sure everything runs smoothly. Would you like to come visit?"
"YES!! YES!! I WOULD LOVE TO VISIT! Thank you so much for taking care of my daughter. You don't know how much this means to me. It means the world to me."
"Anytime, see you shortly."
I immediately hanged up and I started grabbin my coat and bag. "Jayda! I have to go see Imani! Please, please take me there!"
"Girl, shoot. Don't you see me got my bag and coat ready? Let's bounce! I'll drive you there."
As Jayda drove me over to the hospital... I couldn't help but cry.
Not cry because I'm sad. Hell no.
I was crying tears of joy. Cause I was goin to have my Imani back in my life.



We arrived at the hospital about 20 minutes later and me and Jayda ran inside.
"Hi welcome. Can I help you?"
"Hi, were hear to see Imani Edwards. She's my daughter."
"Okay... here is your visitor passes, and she is in room 205. Just take the elevator to the second floor and it will be on your right."
"Thank you so much! Let's go Jayda!"
"Girl, I can't wait to see your daughter. I bet she's giggling and bein all playful like she usually is."
"Jayda, you don't even know the half of it. I missed her so much." I said as we ran inside the elevator.
I pressed the 2nd floor button and it started goin up.
"Well, at least something good happened to you. Right?" Jayda said.
I managed to throw a big smile on my face and took a deep sigh. I couldn't wait  to see my baby girl again but at the same time, I was extremely nervous.
"Yeah your right Jayda. I guess I should try to be faithful."
"That's the spirit. Now lets get the hell out of this elevator to see your girl again."
As soon as the elevator got to the 2nd floor, we paced over to room 205 and we both stopped before opening the door.
"Girl, what are you waitin for? Open it!"
"Jayda... I'm scared."
"What are you scared for!! You got a call sayin that Imani Is all good and shit. So why you getting the jitters now?"
"Because... how about if something goes wrong when I open the door, or when I touch her or if ANYTHING!! I don't wanna jinx anything."
"Girl! Would you stop bein paranoid and nervous and just open the door!?"
"Jayda... can you open it for me?"
"Uh uh. In order to build confidence and courage you gotta try doin stuff yourself. Listen, I love you girl but sheesh. Just open the damn door. She's waitin for you..."
I took a deep breath and looked at Jayda who urged me to open the door.
I just hope for my sake and for Imani's sake that everything will be just fine.
I soon grabbed the doorknob and started twisting it slowly to the right.
"Camille it's been a century already. Would you open it!?"
"Okay, okay!" I opened my eyes and finally twisted the door open to find...
To find... to my very, VERY, VERY, VERY, ULTIMATE SURPRISE...
XAVIER!!!!!?
OH MY GOD... OH MY GOD... OH MY GOD!!!
WHAT IS XAVIER DOIN HERE!!!!?
HOW COULD I BE SO DAMN STUPID!?
XAVIER'S MOM IS OBVIOUSLY A NURSE AT THIS DAMN HOSPITAL!
HOW THE HELL DID I FORGET!!!?
I can't believe this...
Oh my God, oh my God....
I froze in my spot as Jayda was in awe as well.
I as well saw two doctors, Xavier's mom and Imani on the bed still hooked up to dozen of machines. But this time she was awake.
I wanted to run all the way to her, but I was afraid to.
I was only afraid to cause...
The guy I truly love, and the guy who's heart I truly messed up... was there
And that's Xavier.
Suddenly, everybody stared at me waitin for me to enter, but I was to scared to.
"Camille, I'm pleased to see you. C'mon in." The doctor said.
"C'mon Camille." Jayda said lightly pushing me inside as she got in to.
As we got in Xavier and his mom kept givin me eye contact.
And I swear, I felt like I was goin to faint.
Seein Xavier just crushed my heart in pieces cause I crushed his heart in pieces and I knew he wasn't here just for me... but here for Imani. Does he still hate me?
He stopped givin me eye contact than his mother came running up to me givin me a big hug.
"CAMILLE!! I haven't seen you in a while! I told you everything would be alright for your girl. She's right here waitin for you."
I then stopped looking at Xavier, and I stared at Imani who stared back at me.
"Ma ma! Ma ma!"
"Congratulations Camille. You got your girl back." The doctor said.
Soon tears started coming down my eyes and I ran to her and I gave her a soft hug.
"Oh Imani! I missed you sooooo much."
"Imani is doin just fine, with still some mild conditions, but we gave her a little bit of medications, and it seems like she still remembers you. So that's a very good response so far." The doctor said jotting down some notes on his notepad.
"Oh doctor, I don't know how to thank you."
"Oh don't only thank me. Your boyfriend's mother was always here to check up on your sweet little girl. Who's so far been an angel."
The doctors and Xavier's mom laughed.
The thought of the doctor callin Xavier my boyfriend hit me hard... and I quickly glanced over at him... he still wasn't lookin at me. And it pained me to see how hurt he is. He truly still despise me. So why was he still here?
I guess his mom didn't know we broke up yet.
"So how long is she going to stay in the hospital doctor?"
"Oh... I believe 2 weeks tops. Just so we can keep and eye on her and make sure all these tests are all positive. Then you can pick her up."
"Oh thank you doctor. You really made my day."
"Anytime. I'll give you some time with your daughter. I'll be right back."
"Oh Camille, before I go." Xavier's mom said coming up to me. "I got even more news for you."
"Really? What is it?"
"Me, my husband and my son helped paid for your medical bill."
I gasped.
SHE SAID WHAT!!?
"Mrs. Johnson... please don't tell me what you said... is what you truly said."
She laughed. "Camille hun, I couldn't let you off like this. After you told me your daughter was sick and in a coma, I couldn't just be a normal human being if I didn't do something. And this is what I wanted to do. Xavier pitched in, I pitched in, and my husband pitched in. And now, you don't got to worry about a big ass medical bill. It's taken care of baby."
"Wow Mrs. Johnson...I don't know what to say." And I truly didn't even know what to say... Xavier helped pay for my medical bills?
Now this is truly confusing, I thought he hated me with all his heart now?
"It's okay. Seein Imani well and healthy, just makes me feel all good inside. Kids are the future aren't they?"
"Your right. Thank you so much. I promise to pay you back eventually."
"Aww nonsense Camille. Please, even if you do, I wont want it. Plus, your part of the family now. I hope you and Xavier get married sometime. Am I right?" She laughed.
As soon as she said that, I automatically felt a guilt push onto me. My eyes began to weaken and I knew I was about to cry. But I didn't want to do that in front of Jay, her or Xavier... so I took a deep breath and gave her a hug.
"Thanks again."
"No problem hun. Xavier, c'mon now don't be quiet, give your girlfriend a kiss or sumthin. Enjoy your time Camille." She soon exited the room and closed the door.
The room automatically got quiet.
Jayda was staring at me, I was staring at Xavier and Imani was just making little baby sounds. Xavier wasn't even looking at me.
This was a truly damn awkward scene and I just couldn't stand it.
"Well... I think it's best that I leave out of here now." Jayda said quickly walking out the door.
Oh hell no, she ain't leavin me in here with Xavier who won't even talk to me.
I quickly ran up to her blocking her way, and then whispering to her.
"Jayda what you doin!?" I whisper-shouted.
"Girl, it's clear that Xavier ain't over what you did to him. And now it's your chance. Imani is just a baby so she wont even know what ya'll gon do or talk about. Just talk it out with him and I'll  be in the car."
"Jayda, please don't leave me. I don't know how I'm goin to talk to him. He won't even look at me, talk to me, his mom don't know we broke up, and I CAN'T tell him what Tyrese made me do, cause it will just eventually lead to something I never wanted to happen and-"
"Girl, damn! You either wanna be stuck with Tyrese forever or you go tell Xavier everything. Cause if you truly loved him, you wouldn't lie to him or keep secrets from him."
I froze on the spot. What Jayda said definitely made me speechless. I didn't even know what to say.
"Now when your done talkin to your future hubby, come holla at me at the car." Jayda said leaving the room.
"Jayda! Jayda!!" I called out, but this girl fully ignored me.
I took a deep breath and gulped. It was goin to be hard to try and talk to Xavier but It was worth a shot.
I closed the door and I saw him sittin down on his chair.
I knew he wanted to talk to me, why else would he be sitting there?
I quickly wiped my watery eyes and walked up to Xavier and sat down next to him as I watched Imani for a couple of minutes, tryin to think of what to say.
Should I say hi? Should I just wait for him to say something? Should I try givin him a kiss? Should I give him a hug? Should I beg? Should I just... leave?
No, no, no! Camille! C'mon you can do this...
I took another deep breath, forcing myself to not cry and forced myself to talk.
"Hi Xavier..." I said softly, folding my hands nervously.
"Hi..." He responded bluntly.
"How... How... how you doin?" I managed to say.
"Fine." He once again said flat out.
Damn, was he really that mad at me?
I frowned and tried to think of something else to say. I know he hates me and everything, but it's still confusing. If he hates me, why ain't he leavin? But I don't want him to leave, I wanna tell him the whole truth, but I just can't. I know Jayda is goin to be mad at me for not telling him what Tyrese made me do to him, but I can't. Once he finds out Tyrese will kill him. And me...
"Listen Xavier, I really, really, really appreciate what you and your parents have done for me. Payin for Imani's medical bills, and everything. I don't even know how to thank you."
Silence...
I can't believe he didn't bother to respond. Did I say some dumb shit or sumthin like that? I really can't believe he truly hates me.
And I don't blame him, I sort of hate myself now too. But I really do wanna talk to him, at least see how he's doin.
"Xavier... you there?" I said softly.
Silence...
"Xavier please, I really I wanna talk to you."
Silence...
"Xavier, PLEASE PLEASE! Don't do this to me. I really wanna speak to you. I miss hearing your voice..." I said honestly.
Silence...
"Xavier, I'm really, really, REALLY sorry for breaking up with you. I truly didn't... I didn't... I-I-I... I really... listen, I'm really sorry. Okay?" I said hoping he would say something now.
He looked up at me but he still didn't bother to say a word to me.
After staring at me, he sighed and looked back down at the floor.
It pained me to see him hurt, but I knew he still didn't forgive me.
But hopefully doin this will change his mind and make him talk to me again.
I looked at Xavier softly with my eyes and gently touched his chin with my hand and cautiously made his cute face turn towards me making him stare at me with those light brown hazel eyes I fell in love with. I then stared at him with my dark brown eyes and tried my best to telepathically tell him how I still feel about him and how I didn't mean to hurt his heart and it seemed like his eyes were watering the same way as mine.
He blinked, then I blinked.
His eyes were soft, but full of hurt as mine was full of remorse and disloyalty. Wanting to make up for everything I did to him.
And then I slowly began to lean in towards his face, puckering my lips softly to go against his soft lips and before I could press them against his, he quickly turned his face the other way, took my hand off from his smooth chin and got up from his chair on his way towards the door.
Now my heart was officially hurting. How could he do this to me!! He didn't even wanna kiss me anymore...
Tears started coming down my eyes and I had to say something before he left. I couldn't just let him walk out of my life like that.
"XAVIER! Please don't leave! Please... can't we just talk things out?"
"Camille..." He finally said. "I can't be here right now." He said sternly.
"B-b-but-but wh-wh-why?" I said starting to feel myself become weaker and weaker. Little did he know, he was hurting me too.
He took a deep breath and stared at me. "We simply just can't be friends... I'm seeing somebody else."
I widen my eyes and I felt my whole body start to shake and I knew I was about to break down.
Did he really just say what I thought he just said!?
"X-X... Xavier... please, I beg with all my might... please..." I started crying. "Please, tell me... your lying." My heart started breaking one by one, and I felt all the pieces fall inside of me, scattering around and not being able to patch back up.
"Camille... you shouldn't be crying. YOU HURT ME! I never intended to hurt you!"
"But you gotta believe me Xavier, I DIDN'T MEAN TO BREAK UP WITH YOU!! I JUST HAD TO!"
"YOUR NOT MAKING ANY FUCKIN SENSE CAMILLE!! And that's why I gotta leave your ass."
"XAVIER PLEASE!! DON'T GO!"
"CAMILLE LISTEN! Didn't you already break-up with me!? I CAN'T STAND TO BE AROUND YOU RIGHT NOW! OKAY!?"
"BUT XAVIER I-"
"SHUT UP!"
I was speechless and now all the pieces have finally broke from my heart. "Listen Camille, the mistake I made is clear. We should of never been together... That's the reason why I can't be around you. I can do so much better. I ain't gon show one single salty tear, not a feeling in my chest baby... I'm feeling no stress, I'm to fly to be depressed. Go on girl. Just go on with your life. And I do mine."
"XAVIER WAIT PLEASE I-"
Then he closed the door shut. Leaving me all to my lonesome.
As I cried and cried and cried, I walked up to Imani who was smiling happily laying down on her little bed.
I dragged a chair right next to her, sat down and stared at Imani.
Little did she know, I was sad, breaking down inside and on the outside as she was happy to just finally be awake and see her mommy's face.
As the tears fell down my face, replaying the scene of Xavier leaving me, I couldn't help but wonder where I went wrong.
"Don't worry Imani... Every-every... everything will... will... be-al-al-alright... baby-baby girl... mommy lov-lov-loves you... she loves you a lot."
Little do I know, I don't think anything will be okay for me anymore...
As soon as one good thing happens, another bad shit happens.
And I'm starting to get tired of it.
But one things for sure that I agree with Xavier was that we definitely can't be friends...
And not because I don't want to. God knows how much I wanna be with Xavier again but...
We can't be friends because...
I'm still deeply in love with him.
And there's nothing I can do about it.