torn

chapter 23

Louis woke up in his bed to ruckus outside his bedroom door. He turned, sitting up as the door opened. His eyes widened when he saw Harry smiling in the doorway. 

“H-harry, what are you doing here?” Louis asked nervously. 

“You asked me to come over a week ago..?” Harry asked, walking in slowly. 

Louis silently cursed himself for forgetting. He slowly got out of bed. He gulped, he knew he should have broken up with him before they left for home but he hated being the one to do that. He had waited too long and now he was going to get himself in trouble.

“Harry, I don’t think this is working out between you and me.” 

“Why not?” Harry asked more curious than hurt. 

Louis breathed in deeply then let out quietly, “I think I love Zayn.”

“So let me get this straight. You some how convinced me to break up with the guy I fell in love with and wanted to be with my whole life so you could have a crush on me, just to turn around and tell me you’re in love with one of my best friends?” 

“It’s not like that, Harry.”

“You may not see it like that but my whole life is shit right now and it’s all because I had to come out. If I would have just stayed in the closet between us boys here, my life would be so much better.”

“Don’t you dare say that, you know coming out was a good decision on your part.”

Harry shook his head, slowly stepping out of the room. “Whatever, see you in hell.” 

Harry ran out of Louis’ house and straight to his car, driving immediately to the airport. He bought the first ticket to Ireland, waited a few hours then the next thing he knew he was parked outside of Niall’s house. 

He breathed out slowly before creeping up to his front door and knocking lightly. From the other side he heard footsteps then the door opened, showing Niall face. Quickly Niall slipped out the door, closing it behind him.

“What are you doing here?” Niall said coldly. 

“I need you. I love you and I know I’ve made a mistake but I really, really need you.” 

“What about Louis?” Niall said, looking at the ground.

“He broke up with me but even then nothing’s the same with Louis. The sex, I’d rather have it slow and passionate like with you than just being someone he’s fucking. When you kiss me out of the blue its simple and meaningful, I don’t feel that when he kisses me. Niall I’m going crazy I don’t think you understand that. I’m in love with you and have been for such a long time and I don’t think I can live without you. Please Niall, I need you and you know you need me.”

Niall shook his head looking up and at Harry. “I knew I was always a second thought. Now that Louis’ had enough of you, you’re crawling back to me. But I’ve got Liam and I know he’s not going to pull this shit on me.” 

Harry just shook his head slightly.

“I’m sorry but I’m happy with Liam. I’ll always love you Harry, always.” Niall grabbed Harry’s jaw with both hands and let their lips collide. He moved slowly before pulling apart. Harry leaned forward, begging for it to continue. Niall’s fingers glided across Harry’s soft skin as he stepped away.

“Liam doesn’t deserve you.” Harry said as Niall began backing through the doorway. It wasn’t out of anger, but what he truly thought. Niall smiled.

“Yeah I know but neither do you.” And with that, Niall was gone. 

Harry stood on Niall’s front porch, realizing his life had just slipped between his fingers and now it was gone. He closed his eyes, squinting out all his tears. As he slowly drug his feet to the car he left the rest of them coming.