I am home

Chapter 33:

Scarlett's POV

The rest of the day we all spent together. Around dinner time I excused myself because I could feel the high wearing off.

I don't want Ali to see me like this. I don't want ANYONE to see me like this.

I locked myself in my bathroom and just sat on the floor.

I started to sweat a little and for some reason, I couldn't stop moving around.

I want the pills so bad. But at the same time, I want to be clean again.

I don't know what I want.

I don't want to feel like this. I don't want to depend on drugs. I don't want to move from place to place.

I just want to be free.

I want to be a kid. I want to mess up and I want to fall in love and get my heart broken. Maybe the second part not so much. I want to do what every other teenager does.

I want to live.

'Knock knock'

Carina: "Scarlett? Is everything okay?"

I got up and went to the mirror.

I was as pale as a ghost and sweat was building up on my forehead.

Me: "Yeah...", I stuttered.

Carina: "Do you want to open the door so I can come in?"

Me: "Not really", I said, trying to keep in my stomach contents.

Carina: "Scarlett we're here to help, remember?"

I hesitated, but eventually unlocked the door, hiding my face in my arms, as quickly as possible.

She sat down beside me and started stroking my back.

Carina: "It's going to be alright. Do you want some dinner?"

And just like that, my efforts were completely in vain.

I bent over the toilet seat and let everything out.

I puked to the point only air came out and it hurt like hell.

Carina: "I'm sorry", Carina said holding my hair back.

I couldn't help but laugh a little.

I felt pathetic.

Here I was blowing chunks, with a woman holding my hair whom I have only known for a few months.

But then again, I felt like I'd known her for ages.

She didn't care what I looked like. She only cared how I felt.

She helped me get up and we sat on my bed.

It was quiet. Neither one of us said anything.

But yet again it wasn't awkward. This time, I didn't want her to leave, I wanted her to stay.

Me: "Thank you", I said quietly, giving her the warmest smile.

Carina: "Family sticks together", she said giving me a side hug.

Family.

I rested my head on her shoulder and my eyes began to close.

Family sticks together.

A few hours later

I woke up in the middle of the night, to something crawling up my legs.

I immediately jumped out of my bed and started scratching at whatever there was.

Me: "Get the fu...what...stop...."

Maya's POV

I woke up to a few, quiet screams coming from Scarlett's room. I jolted up and sprinted to her room, thinking something was terribly wrong.

I opened the door and saw her standing in her bathroom scratching at her legs, already making herself bleed.

I immediately rushed over to her and tried to calm her down.

She wouldn't stop. She kept saying that there were bugs on her and started breathing really heavily.

I had no clue what else to do, so I got behind her, restraining her.

She sure wouldn't go down without a fight.

For a 15-year-old with seemingly no arm muscles, she was quite a force.

After a few minutes of struggling, we sank to the floor and she started crying.

I was still restraining her at this point, not really knowing when to let go.

She threw her head back and rested it against my shoulder.

Scarlett: "I'm fucking crazy, aren't I", she asked crying.

Me: "No honey you're not crazy. This is just your addiction talking. It's crying out for help."

After a few minutes, I finally released her and took her back to her bed.

Me: "Do you want me to leave?"

She shook her head.

I got in bed beside her and started stroking her hair until she fell asleep again.

Carina's POV

I woke up to an empty bed this morning. Maya's running shoes were on the dresser, so I got up and checked the kitchen.

She was nowhere to be found.

I made my way over to Alice's room when I saw that Scarlett's door was slightly open. I poked my head inside and saw Maya and Scarlett, cuddled up in bed together.

I couldn't help but smile.

Even though the circumstances weren't the right ones, this was the sweetest thing to look at.