IM FUCKING DONE WITH HAVING ONE GOOD DAY AND THINKING "OH THINGS ARE GETTING BETTER" AND THEN HAVING THREE CONSECUTIVE DAYS OF LIVING HELL. MY HEART HURTS, MY HEAD HURTS, MY BODY HURTS. GOD WHAT EVIL HAVE I DONE TO MAKE ME DESERVE THIS TORTURE THIS PAIN!?. ITS EATING ME INSIDE OUT, I CANT TAKE BEING STRONG ANYMORE. WHEN I STAND UP FOR MYSELF I GET BEATEN DOWN, WHEN I STAND UP FOR OTHERS I GET BEATEN DOWN, WHEN I SAY NOTHING I GET BEATEN DOWN. WHY NOT JUST HAVE ME DROP DEAD YEAH? I DONT SEE THE MOTHERFUCKING POINT IF EVERY LITTLE THING I DO IS SUCH A PLAGUE TO THIS UNIVERSE. WHY DID YOU BRING ME INTO THIS WORLD SO I CAN BE TORTURED. JUST WHY!!??
I
DONT
WANT
TO
DO
THIS
ANY
FUCKING
MORE.
and now I'd like to end everything on a high note. that band means more to me than anything. thank you boys for getting me this far. I love you so much. :((:
