Heeeyyyy!
So I guess I'm just gonna rant rn. Because I'm pissed and I'm sad....
Kay so today my cousins flew in from New York and the first thing the say.
"Why do you look like that? Why are you wearing eyeliner?"
And I'm like okay no hi?
I'm wearing a Pierce The Veil shirt, dark blue skinny jeans, red vans, and yea eye liner and mascara.
But why are you being so mean..? Like yea I'm wearing a lot of black, and I have a lot of bracelets on,
YANO BETCH CUZ I CUT MUSELF.
And the bracelets don't even cover all my cuts so I'm constantly trying to hide my arms.
Yea so now I don't even have the courage to look anyone in the eye because I know they will judge me... Like they always do.
Yea so also my report card came in today and my family opened it and my mom got mad cuz I had one B+!!!!
And then like two seconds later my cousin goes again saying
"I still don't understand why you're wearing so much eyeliner.."
Honey please.
I DO WHAT I WANT, IM PUNK ROCK.
I have dark hair, I wear dark clothes, I wear a lot of bracelets. But that's me and I'm not changing for you.
So don't..
Now I'm sitting hear on their couch as a depressed fvck up.
My wrist are itching again.
I'm like blasting Skillet through my earphones. Trying to make sure the voices don't get into my head,
Cause if they do I'm fvcked and I will do anything to draw blood.
That sounds weird... Sorry.
I'm so stupid jaja.
Anyways ily and yea..
Stay Strong xx
-aliyah.
