Sweet or Bittersweet

Special chapter 5

Kyle

Finally. I was given a whole week off from office. Handling company operations and a whole ass mafia was definitely gonna make me get grey hairs in no time.

But I have a special someone who always de stresses me. Someone who always loves me. My snowflake. My Sophia.

While driving back, my mind went back through our entire journey together. Yeah sounds a bit cliche since your memories flood only when you're like eighty years old but everyday I reminisce about our lives. Was it pure destiny or just unexpected meeting?

Parking the car, I step out and let out a sigh. I really needed this break and finally I can spend some time with Sophia. I unlock the door and enter our lovely home. To be honest, where ever she is, that place is my home.

She was busy wrapping up the kitchen when she heard the door opening. Turning around, she comes towards me with a smile and instantly hugs me. It doesn't take me a second to scoop her in my arms as I bury my face into her neck, feeling contented.

"How was the company dinner? Did you enjoy?" She quietly asks. "It was good, but I wanted to come back to you". I heard her giggle before she removes herself from me. "Come on it's getting late. You can relax for a week now". She looks at me with bright eyes and a wide smile.

Unknowingly my heart clenched like anything. These same eyes once were so dead and dull. This smile wasn't there at one time. It was as if she was simply existing. But now look at her. Smiling at me without any tension.

It reminded me of the time when I was the cause of her dead eyes. The times where she shed tears because of me. The times where she begged me to believe her and I turned everything down like an asshole.

God it still baffles me that why the fuck did she forgive me? She should've taken revenge on me. She should've made me feel the same pain...that I once made her go through.

"Kyle? Kyle!" I come back to reality and see her looking at me with confusion.

"Is everything okay?" She asks. "Uh- yeah everything's fine baby. Let's just sleep". She nods ans switches off the lights before taking my hand and we both go to our room.

My heart started feeling heavy with emotions as I finished my night routine and got out all fresh. Sophia was busy doing her skincare in front of her mirror. Since she was wearing a sleeveless night top, I could see her arms and her back filled with scars.

Scars from all the fighting and her own personal scars. As if my heart wasn't clenching hard enough. It was starting to crawl up my throat.

Without wasting a second, I hug her from behind which startled her but she instantly relaxes. I inhaled her calming aroma as I tighten my grip. She was visibly confused at my behavior.

"Kyle....are you really okay? You-
"Why did you forgive me Sophia?" I ask which stilled her.

"Huh? Kyle what are you talking about? I-
"Why didn't you take out your anger on me when....you know...our past". I could even form sentences as the guilt started to take over me. Why did I behave so badly with her? Why is she still putting up with me? She deserves so much better.

She was visibly surprised at this and knew what was going on in my head. She turns around in my embrace and cups my face with her warm hands.

"What good it would've done if I did the same as you? It won't make me a great person right? Instead it would cause us even more pain. Even to me".

"You had all rights to do so Sophia....I can't believe you forgave me...this second chance feels like someone giving me a second chance to live again". By this time my tears started to flow from my eyes.

Her eyes softened at my guilt ridden state and she wipes my tears slowly. I couldn't help but nuzzle my face into her hands, feeling like I returned home.

"You had no one to tell you what was right and wrong. You lost so much and yet you stayed strong. We both were young and stupid....but now we are here with each other right?"

"S-Sophia....i'm so sorry....I still beat myself to it. Y-You deserve s-so much better than me..."

She rubs her nose against mine lovingly, "too bad I only want you".

I tightly hug her, letting out all the guilt and pain I felt all this time. It felt so good to get rid of this guilt for once and for all. I can easily wake up beside her without feeling sad.

She rubs her hand up and down my back and whispering it's okay. God the fact that I could've lost this peace at one time was making me terrified. My biggest fear was someone would come and take this away from me.

"Sophia....please leave this mafia world....I-I can't bear to see another scar on you...please I-

My words got cut off as a pair of soft lips crashed against mine. Instantly I close my eyes and melt into the kiss. My hands caress her back as a I felt her scars underneath my fingertips.

She pulls away before looking at me, "it's going to take more than just a bullet to kill me Kyle. Nothing will ever take me away from you. It's my promise. I will stay alive".

I still felt hesitant. I wish I could abandon this world and peacefully live with my other half that is her. But I can't leave this abruptly.

"We're in this together Kyle". She promises as my mind felt slightly calm.

"Together". I whisper.