My Life and Other Sad Things

after the sun sets

after the sun sets i lay in bed
surrounded by blankets and warmth
dogs snuggle at my feet
my thoughts eat me alive
and i am between comfort and pain
i think about everything i'm not
and who i wish i was
until i forget where i am
and have no connection to real life anymore
i break out of the silence with the only way i know to comfort myself
shh...
it is just a whisper
a sound you make that i make when you aren't there
my thoughts muddle and glaze over
until your body wraps over me
and i succumb into my dreams
-i fall asleep to you.