My Life and Other Sad Things

if i get a second

if i get a second

job then we will not

be able to talk as much

if we don't talk as much

we will drift apart

if we drift apart we'll start

to forget what love feels like

if we forget what love feels like

then we'll break up

if we break up

then i will be trapped

forever alone

we will not break up

if we don't forget what love feels like

and never drift apart

by calling everyday

if and only if

i don't get a second job

-logic with anxiety

if i don't get a second job

i won't be able to save

up enough money to move back to ohio

which means i won't be able to see you for a long time

which means talking will get harder and harder

which means that our relationship

will

crumble

so i have to do get a second job

when and only when i have enough money saved up to have a few months' rent and enough gas and enough food and enough hotel rooms and enough for insure will i be able to move back to ohio.

if i get a second job we are doomed and if i don't get a second job we are doomed.

anxiety is a never-ending cycle of unsolvable riddles.