My Life and Other Sad Things

i felt

i felt ugly,ashamed,stupid,unlikeable,awkward,unorginal,retarded,voiceless,unworthy,gross,used,tired,fake--unloved

until he looked at me and saw something pretty

obssessed/obssessed/obsessed

needing him to feel smart,likeable,relateable,talented, needed,wanted-loved

always thinking about him
caring for him

giving him everything he needed
to make him stay; needing to feel something that would not destroy me

until it did

-what i couldnt stop before it was too late