My Playboy Boyfriend || J.JK

Why?

"I don't need your sorry" He replied. It hurts. I cried and cried. I told him everything about my past. I trusted him so much. I told him not to leave me. But in the end he left me. Why? Why does it hurt so much more even tho we treat each other as siblings but not by blood. He was the best big brother I could ever have. But it ended with one simple word, a small situation that turned into a bigger problem tease....Yes, I teased him but I was just joking.

I cried my heart out all night. I keep telling myself that It was all mu fault. I picked a needle by my dresser and pushed it in my skin and cutting myself when I pulled it side ways gently and deeply. Mental pain is much painful than Physicall pain. Blood. Blod then dripped out of my hand.

"I'm sorry"

"Please Forgive me"

"I'm really sorry, I won't ever do it again"

I texted him back. He then change the chat color, cleared his nickname and cleared my nickname. Ouch. I screamed. It has only been 4 months since I really got close to him. He cared for me like his very own little sister. Whenever I cut he puts bandages all over it.

Whenever I cry he's always there for me. Comforting me in any way he can. Whenever I said "I love you" to him he would say "I love you,too". Whenever he feels down I'm always his happiness when he looks at me. He knows my pain. He knows that behind my bright smile I hide a painful experience.

My already aching heart is slowly falling apart. I don't want to see his face it hurts me by just looking at it. I want to trasffer in another school away from him. I want to get away from as fast as possible. I want to cut so many on my wrists. I want to die. I'm tired....someone save me..

Last Day-September 19,2018

Day: September 21,2018

"I'm so sorry"