Adopted

Chapter 11

I was hysteric. After Jasper kissed me on Saturday I wasn't myself anymore, I couldn't do anything without thinking of Jasper.

I couldn't even go to church on Sunday because I didn't sleep early at night and I ended up over sleeping the next morning.

I replayed the events of that day over and over in my head. A part of me liked what had had happened and it wanted more so badly but another part hated me for what happened. I was in a state of utter confusion.

I can't allow myself to fall for him because I don't need a boyfriend at this point. Not that Jasper would like me back and he'd want to date me.

What am I even thinking? Jasper doesn't like me and he won't anytime so I shouldn't like him and start dreaming of dating him.

I need to focus, I have just two goals which are to find my father and graduate with the perfect grades and get a scholarship to get into college. Nothing should stop me.

You can still do all those things and date Jasper!

No way that's going to happen. I have to keep my focus.

I ignored my subconscious as I walked down the hallway to my first class of the day.

I had to leave the house before Jasper could come downstairs. Thank God I already had my car so I won't have to rely on anyone on getting to school and leaving as fast as I can.

My thoughts were interrupted by someone walking into me making my books fall from my hands.

"Hey watch it," speak of the devil.

I bent down to pick my books not even sparing him another glance or saying a word to him.

Before I could finish gathering my books from the floor another pair of hands took the books from my hands and lifted me up.

I looked up to still see the same person as before. Why can't he just leave me alone? The more time I spend with him the more I'd fall for him.

So you're already falling for him?

Sorry I meant I'd begin to fall for him.

Oh save it we all know what you meant.

Shut up.

"Sorry," he apologized handing me my books.

I just nodded in reply walking to my class. I don't want to have a interaction with him. Before I could take two steps away he grabbed my arm making me turn to face him.

"Hey what's wrong?" He asked concern laced in his voice.

What's wrong is that you kissed me on Saturday and now I'm left in a state of utter confusion. I can't even do anything properly without thinking of that day. That's what's wrong!

"Nothing," I said instead.

"Is it because of Saturday?" He released his grip on my hand.

"No, it's nothing," I shook my head.

"Je-"

I rose my hand to stop him from saying further, "it's nothing Jasper, I'm totally fine, Saturday was a mistake so let's forget about it. It's nothing," I told him and myself.

He didn't look convinced but he left me alone nonetheless, "alright." He nodded walking away from me.

I sighed in relief walking in the opposite direction to my class.

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Through all my classes I was totally distracted, I bumped into a lot of persons totally lost in my thoughts.